i got back from a very scary place yesterday.. i dont want to go back but soon i must for just another visit in 10 days. then it will be over until things calm down.

i was hoping to go to califur.... dont know if it is possible anymore. was going to help my brother from another mother move from this house... dont know if i can do that anymore... it was my doing... my mistake. i just hope that things can start to return to normal... and my count can begin again.

i am sorry to all that i was away. i will try to be more present now. the weekend isnt my best time to be here but ill try. and starting next week i will be back i think.

i hope you are all well.