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13 years ago
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Trip to, heave and ho; Up, down, to and fro- You have no word
I promise I haven't forgotten about the gift art. Drama has popped up again in the life of IK and I'm trying one more stab at the dark to be happy, or at least to find resolution to the problems in my life.
In relation to this revelation will be the biggest art project I have ever attempted. This means even my suit project has been on hold. Only hint I can give you guys is that it's gonna be big, and it involves pastels. Would you all be interested in seeing the finished product once i'm done?
I am gonna drink some coffee now and force myself to stay awake through the night tonight so I cna get a big chunk of this done. Tomorrow I will do the same. I've been looting lots of cardboard and I don't have much time to finish this.
I honestly don't know what I hope to accomplish with this project.. I mean, I know what i'd like to happen, but i'm almost certainly positive it wont happen. I'm even asking myself "Why bother?" But i've gotta try..
I guess this journal is just letting you all know i'm okay and that i'll be more active once this is done. and this should be done ssometime this week or this weekend because i'm running out of time.
Question: I've made up a term of what i've been feeling to people as of late.. it's called being a "spare tire" friend. Meaning, I am rarely mentioned, hardly used.. but when i am needed i do everything in my power to please and I get the job done no matter how many potholes I am faced with. But then only to be replaced and thrown in the trunk, not to be seen again until the next time i'm needed for something. I feel like.. for my friends close by me (not any of you ^^ ), it's like.. i'm ignored. if I want to do something with them they are always busy.. They constantly flake on me, and when they do want to do something it's usually because i'm driving, or i'm buying them stuff. Am I selfish to be feeling this way? Should I be more rigid and not be used this way? :(
In relation to this revelation will be the biggest art project I have ever attempted. This means even my suit project has been on hold. Only hint I can give you guys is that it's gonna be big, and it involves pastels. Would you all be interested in seeing the finished product once i'm done?
I am gonna drink some coffee now and force myself to stay awake through the night tonight so I cna get a big chunk of this done. Tomorrow I will do the same. I've been looting lots of cardboard and I don't have much time to finish this.
I honestly don't know what I hope to accomplish with this project.. I mean, I know what i'd like to happen, but i'm almost certainly positive it wont happen. I'm even asking myself "Why bother?" But i've gotta try..
I guess this journal is just letting you all know i'm okay and that i'll be more active once this is done. and this should be done ssometime this week or this weekend because i'm running out of time.
Question: I've made up a term of what i've been feeling to people as of late.. it's called being a "spare tire" friend. Meaning, I am rarely mentioned, hardly used.. but when i am needed i do everything in my power to please and I get the job done no matter how many potholes I am faced with. But then only to be replaced and thrown in the trunk, not to be seen again until the next time i'm needed for something. I feel like.. for my friends close by me (not any of you ^^ ), it's like.. i'm ignored. if I want to do something with them they are always busy.. They constantly flake on me, and when they do want to do something it's usually because i'm driving, or i'm buying them stuff. Am I selfish to be feeling this way? Should I be more rigid and not be used this way? :(
To answer your question, I'm thinking it's a odd time as of now to ask of anything from friends around you (not the internet peeps :P) cause it was Memorial Weekend, plus it's summer vacation for some of them. Though if this started before hand, than maybe you need to bring up the issue. Not meaning to sound rude when asking them, but drop it on them and be like "So uhm..are you a bit too busy to hang with me?" And once again, I don't know if it does sound rude, hopefully it doesn't.
Remember to do what makes you happy, not to make others happy. I know we all need to learn that much.
Be Safe, IK! :D <3~
Yeah, this has been going on since back before 2012. I dunno.. just, some people make me feel like i'm asking too much when i want to see them more than one time per month even though they live close by. And when I do see them, i'll be buying coffee, or driving, or giving them presents, and while none of that bothers me in the least bit because I get to see them; I wish they'd feel the same way about seeing me. Sometimes I feel like they wish they were somewhere else, you know?
My only problem is, I have jealousy issues, especially when i know they have been constantly hanging out with other people and canceling plans with me to hang out with them. So a comment like "So uhm, are you a bit too busy to hang out with me?" turns into "So I guess you are too busy to hang out with me. Oh well, i'm sure you're having tons more fun with them." :C That's why I posted here instead of fuming elsewhere. ^^;
I knoww, but to be honest, making other people happy makes me happy. I just wish people would realize that. ;;
Ah, well jealousy happens in everyone and I do get jealous at times as well. If ya like, we can be jealous together and rage while doing artz. Just imagine us with rage faces and drawing something epic.
I'm sure you'll be able to see them regardless of drama and such.
Your so right with what makes you happy. I do the same thing myself, though I need to learn to do things to make myself happy. Yay for learning!
I really want to see the project with the pastels, wonder if it's a big painting? It's gonna be awesome anyway. :D
And friend related thing, no. Do not feel bad, you have absolutely every right to feel as you do. Seems like they're using you for their resource. That's bad and no a friend, I'd hang out! Even though I'd be really quiet and boring. ; -; But I would try! Do what's right for you, don't let them take advantage of you or I will go rawr at them. -Does wimpy grrr.- ; -;
I miss your creative creatures you'd make. -Hugs IK- <3
...drama.
Yeah, luckily this whole hting isn't putting me in one of my dark holes. Its rough to want to do so many things at once, there is never enough time!
The reason why I hhad to put everything else on hold was because the project, who this is for.. They are gonna be leaving soon, like.. cross country. and I dont know when they'll be back.. If they'll be back. At this point people are saying I should do things for myself but this piece isn't for me. Maybe.. I'll sell the pieces too, so I can earn some money to help them with their move.
bleh.. or maybe i shouldnt ._.
Thank you so much for the video! I watched half just now, i'll watch the other half later. ^^ There are some great tips. :)
Pastel project? I won't say you're wrong. C:
-hugs- I'll be sure to make some fun mixes after all of this crazy is complete.
you'll make it