I don't know if any of you keep tabs on my life or something (stalkers!), but I did break off something earlier last night. A good friend, someone who loved me. I had to play it straight and tell them what was what.

I'd started an online relationship with someone over in the next state, a good 500 miles away. It all seemed to be going good, but over the course of just 3 weeks, I felt emotionally drained and didn't feel like it was going to work. It really wasn't going to work. Last night, I told this person what I felt.

The issue is, and I don't know if any of you know this, that I have a life outside the furry fandom. I work a full-time job. I have a large circle of friends. Ex school friends, furries, co workers, cosplayers, etc. At the moment, I have everything I need to live a peaceful life. I drink socially (and sometimes get smashed too! Who doesn't?!), I don't do drugs or cigarettes, and I'm still in the prime of my life where I'm still deciding on what I want.

I won't lie, I'm actually sick at the moment. I have a really resilient immune system. So resilient in fact that if I'm ever sick with a cold, I'm either bed ridden or still able to crawl out and live life normally. In the latter case, the illness lasts a ridiculously long time, otherwise, I'm alive and well within 2-3 days.

I'm thankful to be the latter, because despite feeling like vomiting everytime I cough and slowly losing my voice, I still have the strength to drag myself out of bed and go to work. I have to. Whatever hours I take off work, are hours that I don't get paid. I'm only hired on a casual role basis and non-permanent. Technically, I'm still classed as emergency staff, and if Suncorp ever decides that they need to downsize, I will be among the first they'd lay off.

My boss is telling me that she can move me into a more permanent position, but I'd have to work for it. This means no answering texts at work, and working on keeping that average handling time down. I did that yesterday, and I almost died of overwork. It was worth it though.

Going back to the original problem. I'm sorry, but when I'm hard at work and someone messages my phone, and I don't get back to them, the answer is not to bombard my phone with 18 more messages. That is just immature. I have expectations at work and I cannot be distracted while on the phone to customers. In fact, anything that demands I drop the important things in life and pay attention only to it, that isn't a fire emergency or a bomb threat, can get stuffed. Anyone that thinks that I can't go out drinking with a colleague after a good day at work is insane. Anything that wants to contest what I do can take up a trouble ticket with the internal disputes department of Suncorp and I will get back to them never.

I have a life. Respect it