Well here is more of my whining.

Im bored and lonely. Kinda been thinking about things and I realize that.. since my efforts aren't wanted, appreciated, noticed or other wise, there is no reason to keep up these efforts. Its useless looking for happiness. Useless looking for a new job. Useless wanting to go to college when I wont be happy or plentiful anyway.

No matter how much I care.. I have realized that no one has ever done the same for me. I make things for people, hold them when they need it... and its never been replied or given back..... am I missing something?

Oh well.. I must go on.....