Isnt it weird how when you have two really good amazing deals. but you can only choose one. it is stressful and just tear you apart
I guess this is a little bit different. two choices and whichever you choose you will miss out on something that is a once in a life time chance.


anyways. (yes I am being emo) I told my brother I might not be able to go to anthrocon cause I dont have a ride and plane tickets are 440$ (this was before i thought about trains and buses (which would still cost me about 210$) So my brother being part of the hipster/raver/spiritualist/partyer/collage/gay/ect.. relitively succesful and popular lifestyle he has, put together a road trip with six people, he included anthrocon in the roadtrip. ( this roadtrip was put together for me kinda a bit) with everything together, this multi stop road trip is going to cost pretty much all of my money.

meaning... I cant afford a 220$ hotel...

thats the part that has been stressing me out. because the person I was going to room with at ac was durango dingo. He was the first person to ever hug me outside my family. by that I mean he is the first person to ever be affectionate to me in any way. I guess thats kinda creepy but I really wanted to get to know him a little and possibly gain a cool new friend who is a furry.
Now I have to tell him I am canceling on the room and its pretty close to ac... I don't think he will ever be my friend.
I guess I am a little greedy for doing something wrong. (making something inconvenient for 6 other people) so that
I can go on a road trip. (also I wont have much money to spend on my mate when i get back home) but It would be unthinkable to cancel on my brother after he create this roadtrip with me in mind. (my brother isnt a furry by the way)

Anywaysimightbeoverreactingbutimnotsure.... Just stressed about it and need to write it down. Guess I should tell them as soon as possible.