So I guess to start off I'm going to say that... I failed. I won't be crossing stage with the rest of my friends. I will still get my diploma if I complete the correspondence packet, but when I told my dad the sound of disappointment in his voice over the phone... It nearly killed me.

Today marked my true "first" day at my new apartment and my new life. And with this new life I've decided to keep a journal or a diary, whichever you want to call it, as I search for what I want to live for. With it, I hope to motivate myself more and to be able to reflect upon this new path whenever I want. Heh heh originally I thought about using these journals as my everyday journals but I thought that would be kinda weird.

With that aside I've thought more about my 'crush' from my poem "Is This Love?". I know that love is a strong word and I know that I don't love him, but more I have a affection for him and I mostly want to be his friend. I haven't heard from him in a few weeks, I wonder if he read it and assumed it was about him and now won't talk to me. I really hope that is not the case, but if it is... I guess there isn't to much I can do about it.

That's all I have for now but I want to end on a question. Do you guys think I reveal to much about my personal feelings on here?