i dont really know what to write here but what the hell.

im going to write my feelings and my thoughs here and now.

i feel like im dying. i want someone to reach out their paws and grab me.
takeing me away. to mabye start a new life. with a friend, with someone we love or what so ever.

im going to have a b-day party with some old friends and so this weekend but im thinking of not haveing it.

all i want now is someone i can trust, someone that could hold me.
im here for everyone at anytime and no one is here for me.

found out this night that some of my so called friends is just there useing me or something like that.

i dont really know what to write since its almost 4 am or even more. my eyes is slowly closeing but i feel like i need to write this somewhere.

all the freaking fucktard letters is floating around and i dont know if i even spell stuff correct.

my mood have been going up and down since sometimes there been super much drama around me and then its been cool one, two days then the drama comes to me again.

i wish someone could come and just hug me and take me away from this fucking hole i live in. i feel sick and it feels like im going to be stuck here and rotten.

im almost 17 years old and ive gone through much. more then people can think of. from family problems to alcohol to fights and drugs.

i kinda want to end my life tho i still want to live. to make sure all my ''friends'' are okey and feel good. and i dont want to break my promise. to meet all my friends here in Sweden, Finland, Denmark, Norway and England. after ive met all my friends in all these countries i hope i die as fast as possible