Hello to anyone who keeps up with what i post. thought i'd give a quick update on stuff thats gone on or i could keep it short and say its been hell.

As an old saying goes when one thing goes wrong everything seems to fallow or happen all at once and it sure has the whole world has been collapsing around me i've been feeling alone even though i have friends and family to help

anyone would be a wreck or worse after what i've gone though having lost a mate who i do still love but know it probably won't work or he won't come back to me steered me to not really eating or sleeping kept having anxiety attacks to add to it.

and right when i started healing i find out a family member passed away hasn't done anything but kill me inside all i want is this miserable pain to end that is why i've been writing so much dark stuff is to try and get it out of me.

maybe i am just in denial i can't really say maybe i've been crying to much hard to say but thats the update on whats gone on or i should say wrong with my life just struggleing to hang on while i can.

hope everyone has a wonderful day