man, i have been feeling so down lately. lost my job a few months ago cant drive my car no one seems to want to hang with me. my pen tablet cant be used and i dont feel like i have anyone i can dump all this onto. its a very confining feeling. i want to move out and get away from it all. the only thing i can think of right now is join the army. no, its not because i want to throw my life away or anything i just want to get out and do something i feel will make a difference 4 me or something else.
my art is lagging along i forget how to use all my digital programs and i cant even game like i used too my wii is broken and my TV is such shit i cant even play my ps2 either. i think im going to start hanging with my old friends and see if i can find a little change in scenery or something. its just a lot of things have been putting me in my place, a place where i think im better than and every time i try to rise above im slapped back down. so i desperately look 4 a way out of this crap. this to me is a vent journal but who knows maybe some1 will take it seriously and give this husky a hand.