I know not much people will read this probably none, that just because i am realiste, i have like 11 watcher, and most of them watch like 300 + other people, so i did not mind:)

I promess it the last time i am talking about possibility of not be read:)


I do not know for you people, but i recently realised that in my all life i did lot of crazy thing just to hade or keep friends. I was alway telling that having friend is not that much important and that it probably better then i stay alone because it less trouble.

But now i am looking back and see how the thing i hade done, thing i will NEVER did if it was not linked with one of my friend... easy example.... HERE.... I will never hade visite this place or create a accont here if it was not the only way to keep my self in contact with one of my friend.

But that is not realy crazy, playing 10 years of Everquest just because it was mostly the only way to keep in contact with my friend, creat a chain-mail with like 30 000 rings place one by one just to be in medieval stuff because some of my friend was in it, or giving 6 month of free work and lot of money that i did not own just to try to help people i was considering friends.... that some crazy stuff i hade done.

The good side of all this is that i did lot of thing i will never event think doing if it was not from potential or already own friendship. The down side is that i realise that most of the people i was considering friends did not see me the same way i see them, for them i am more someone they know then a friend, so maybe i was wrong all alone.

I will like once in a wild not alway be the fisrt one take contact, i am the feeling that with some of my friend i will be 6 month with givining new and they will not care, 90% of the time friend are calling or mailing first is because they need something of me.

Maybe i am simply totaly wrong about how to make friend.

Any one know a book like How to make friend for dumy?...*sign*

Leon