I hate it here. I am back less than 2 days and I wish I were anywhere but here. Dad lies to me and I believe is trying to push me and Tiffanee apart. He pretends to be supportive but is always so hostile in his tone of voice.

As for the router, he lies to me or purposely doesn't tell me things. When I make suggestions or reason with him, he gets stubborn and thinks he is right. The router which he has at the moment overheats, therefore needs to be switched off daily. Routers are supposed to be left on for months at a time to improve it and allow firmware updates. He abuses the fact he brought a shitty router, making it switch off from 11 (he said 1 in the morning, then 12, and let me find out yesterday when I got disconnected from Tiffanee mid sentence). His excuse for this is that it will help with my insomnia, but in actuality he is just making my depression worse and making me lose faith in him as a father. I am already too scares to talk to him without getting Tiffanee to badger me into it. As I said before it feels like he is trying to separate me and Tiffanee; I really don't want him to be at the wedding or reception.

It is no secret I am underweight, yet he keeps nothing in the house to eat except the bare minimum, I am almost always hungry and I feel guilty when I do have a snack or even a biscuit.

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I would like to say that my dad is a good man, just I do not see eye to eye with him, and as much as I love him, I do not like him.