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13 years ago
-sigh- where to even start ;~;
first off i'm so far behind on bills, i don't even know where to start with them, i still owe on a ticket i got in california. (my own fault i know but this is a vent journal not a cry for attention nothings my fault journal you can stop reading here if you think thats what this is)
i wish i wouldn't have made a bad investment a couple weeks ago, i might not have fallen this far behind. i can't really blame anything on this one except whatever god there is hating on me hard the fuck core.
my job took me off the schedule even though i specifically told them not to when i had to take my chunk of leave to get to cali to talk about the job offer i had which was a flunk.
i'm trying to find a second job, but it's proving to be extremely difficult.
been crunching numbers all day with my girl and figuring everything out so at least i can be productive somehow......
my girlfriend is trying extremely hard as well to find a job and help me out the best she can but even shes having problems with all of that, and the worst part is even though shes going to read this and i don't care, she DOES NOT have to help because this is my debt and my problem but she wants to anyways ;~; i so ontop of everything else i feel guilty as fuck because she wants to take this on with me which means more than anything to me
i just want everything in my life to get back on track for me and no matter what i've done to get it back on it falls back apart, i feel like i'm getting to my wits end and if it weren't for my girl i'd have lost my mind by now so thank you i love you baby, you sticking with me through this means the world to me!!!
if anyone has GOOD advice to give i'll accept it but i don't want to hear any crap from anyone!!!
i just wanted to vent so if you read this thank you i appreciate you care enough to see whats going on in my life -hugs-
.... i just want to be on track... why is it so hard to get there.... just.... why?
first off i'm so far behind on bills, i don't even know where to start with them, i still owe on a ticket i got in california. (my own fault i know but this is a vent journal not a cry for attention nothings my fault journal you can stop reading here if you think thats what this is)
i wish i wouldn't have made a bad investment a couple weeks ago, i might not have fallen this far behind. i can't really blame anything on this one except whatever god there is hating on me hard the fuck core.
my job took me off the schedule even though i specifically told them not to when i had to take my chunk of leave to get to cali to talk about the job offer i had which was a flunk.
i'm trying to find a second job, but it's proving to be extremely difficult.
been crunching numbers all day with my girl and figuring everything out so at least i can be productive somehow......
my girlfriend is trying extremely hard as well to find a job and help me out the best she can but even shes having problems with all of that, and the worst part is even though shes going to read this and i don't care, she DOES NOT have to help because this is my debt and my problem but she wants to anyways ;~; i so ontop of everything else i feel guilty as fuck because she wants to take this on with me which means more than anything to me
i just want everything in my life to get back on track for me and no matter what i've done to get it back on it falls back apart, i feel like i'm getting to my wits end and if it weren't for my girl i'd have lost my mind by now so thank you i love you baby, you sticking with me through this means the world to me!!!
if anyone has GOOD advice to give i'll accept it but i don't want to hear any crap from anyone!!!
i just wanted to vent so if you read this thank you i appreciate you care enough to see whats going on in my life -hugs-
.... i just want to be on track... why is it so hard to get there.... just.... why?
I'd literally just drop everything and head up there to help out best I could.
(Good Advice) Don't eat out, just cook your own food. As for your job, telling them you have a job interview may not have been the wisest things. That shows conflict of interest. I suggest talking with them about that situation and speak with them about progression within their business, what you can actually do for them and what the future holds for you in the path of sticking with them.
(Good Advice) Find another job on the side without making it interfere with the one you currently have.
(Good Advice) And lastly, make yourself financially responsible before attempting to take care of someone else. Times are hard but as a man dating a girl from another state, that is really expensive.... you must be prepared for that step before you take. I am not saying to leave her or anything like that. Just push yourself harder to meet your means. Going crazy is not going to help anyone.
(Good Advice) And letting her help you is not an embarrassment. Why should it be?