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13 years ago
Hello!
Sometimes I can't draw. When I feel like this I feel like shit. I feel like I can't do anything and that my life is pointless. I really don't know why. There is no logical reasoning behind this. It's just one of those pet peeves I have.
Which I have been experiencing a lot lately because I am trying to experiment and find a style that works for me. I think my art sucks. People say it doesn't. It does. It sucks so much that it only gets 5 views a pop. The last decent work I posted was Crazy Duncan with a Hat. That was months ago. I can't find a single decent piece that I have submitted that wasn't an experiment. Drawing Traditional is ok but wrestling with my tablet is a fucking NIGHTMARE. I don't have the patience for it to not work the way I want it to. And when it does work the way I want it to, I can't be arsed to draw anything. What am I doing wrong? is it PaintTool SAI? Should I go back to flash? What the fuck do I focus on? HOW DO I DRAWS?!?
Not to mention the large amounts of personal shit I have been dealing with lately as well. I would rather be in school than suffer the insane amounts of counter-productivity that I display daily. I have no patience to focus on drawing unless I am medicated, but when I am medicated I am also fucking EMO.
Sometimes I just sit back and wonder how the fuck artists like RoareyRaccoon and TheDoggyGal are able to just spit out commissions like one after another like cheap plastic McDonald's toys in a fucking Chinese Factory.
PAYPAL IS A BITCH. A HUGE BITCHING COCK-BITING SUPER BITCH. BITCH BITCH BITCH. It WON'T put the damn ammounts I need it to activate it into my bank account, SO HOW THE FUCK DO I ACTIVATE THIS THEN.
Why the hell does banking need to be so goddamn confusing. PNC, I WANT TO SET UP AN EBAY AND PAYPAL ACCOUNT. WHY ARE YOU BEING SUCH A TOOL AND DENYING BOTH OF THEM.
I want to make money off of drawings so that my mom doesn't think I just sit at home and fucking play AoS all day on my fat ass. BUT I CAN'T DO THAT UNLESS I HAVE A FUNCTIONING PAYPAL. AND I CAN'T HAVE A FUNCTIONING PAYPAL UNLESS I HAVE A FUNCTIONING BANK ACCOUNT JUST FUDSKFLSJFSLKFSJFASPOFDFPDSJFSOIAFJD.
Why can't I focus on the damn Website work that i am supposed to be doing> I am an idiot. It's been weeks since I last checked in and I have accomplished very little since then. I don't even know if they think I am alive or not.
I need ice cream. I need to sort out my life.
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Which I have been experiencing a lot lately because I am trying to experiment and find a style that works for me. I think my art sucks. People say it doesn't. It does. It sucks so much that it only gets 5 views a pop. The last decent work I posted was Crazy Duncan with a Hat. That was months ago. I can't find a single decent piece that I have submitted that wasn't an experiment. Drawing Traditional is ok but wrestling with my tablet is a fucking NIGHTMARE. I don't have the patience for it to not work the way I want it to. And when it does work the way I want it to, I can't be arsed to draw anything. What am I doing wrong? is it PaintTool SAI? Should I go back to flash? What the fuck do I focus on? HOW DO I DRAWS?!?
Not to mention the large amounts of personal shit I have been dealing with lately as well. I would rather be in school than suffer the insane amounts of counter-productivity that I display daily. I have no patience to focus on drawing unless I am medicated, but when I am medicated I am also fucking EMO.
Sometimes I just sit back and wonder how the fuck artists like RoareyRaccoon and TheDoggyGal are able to just spit out commissions like one after another like cheap plastic McDonald's toys in a fucking Chinese Factory.
PAYPAL IS A BITCH. A HUGE BITCHING COCK-BITING SUPER BITCH. BITCH BITCH BITCH. It WON'T put the damn ammounts I need it to activate it into my bank account, SO HOW THE FUCK DO I ACTIVATE THIS THEN.
Why the hell does banking need to be so goddamn confusing. PNC, I WANT TO SET UP AN EBAY AND PAYPAL ACCOUNT. WHY ARE YOU BEING SUCH A TOOL AND DENYING BOTH OF THEM.
I want to make money off of drawings so that my mom doesn't think I just sit at home and fucking play AoS all day on my fat ass. BUT I CAN'T DO THAT UNLESS I HAVE A FUNCTIONING PAYPAL. AND I CAN'T HAVE A FUNCTIONING PAYPAL UNLESS I HAVE A FUNCTIONING BANK ACCOUNT JUST FUDSKFLSJFSLKFSJFASPOFDFPDSJFSOIAFJD.
Why can't I focus on the damn Website work that i am supposed to be doing> I am an idiot. It's been weeks since I last checked in and I have accomplished very little since then. I don't even know if they think I am alive or not.
I need ice cream. I need to sort out my life.
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All you need is focus. Just sit down and draw shit. Don't care about how it looks. Draw. Draw until you develop something. Just fucking draw until your hand cramps up.
Direct your inquiries regarding PayPal towards their help support; they're the ones most qualified to fixing your problems.
You should definitely work on that website. People are relying on you for a service and you really shouldn't ignore them; especially if they're paying you. Not paying attention to this is irresponsible.