3) You're better off distancing yourself some from your dad. Trust me:/ It'll only bring you misery if you stick around in situations like this.

4) You sound like me. I was diagnosed with schizotypal personality disorder.

5) Your life is changing a lot these days it seems. Its a natural response to change. And when you move, you're gonna feel like you made the worst decision in your entire life, AND you're gonna feel homesick. My suggestion is to either move back home if you can, and then move again later when you feel ready. Just cos you're an adult, doesn't necessarily mean you're ready to leave the nest. Or you can stay, ride out the bad feelings and then move on with your life on your own. And remember, there is no shame in calling home a lot. When i moved, i went through this, and i phoned home sometimes 2 and 3 times a day. It declined over time and now i only call once a week or so, but only to let them know i'm alive.

Whats an MA thesis? And what's ECG? TSH?

Any other things happening in your life you feel like sharing? I'm in the mood for something juicy:p

MA Thesis is an academic thesis that one must write and defend in order to graduate and get a degree. In order to get my Master's degree, I wrote a 71-pages thesis about stereotypes in animation.

ECG (ElectroCardioGraphy) is a medical examination that checks the heart activity by attaching electrodes to the body. It's a simple thing, I lied down on a couch, the doctor attached some electrodes to my chest, wrists and ankles and the machine meisured my heart beat (probably something else as well, but I'm not a doctor, so I don't really know).

TSH is a thyroid-stymulate hormone that is synthesized and managed by thyroid. Since I've got too much, my thyroid seems to be lazy. Some of the symptoms of hypothyroidism include weight gain, dry skin, hair loss, depression states, shortness of breath, muscle cramps and joint pains.

*gives you a big hugs to comforts you*

Thank you, big dragon *hugs back*

You'll do fine with your thesis dont worry :) and about your thiroid I hope is nothinh too serious. doesnt look like it from what you said but is good that a doctor is checking you up.

I dunno about your mood swings bro. i wish i could say something but I am not the most indicarte for that (not a psicologist or something). maybe is stress or some kind of attitude and behaviour you could change. or maybe is depression. I think you could see a psychiatrist and he could tell you what it is more precisely.

I can't afford a psychiatrist :/

best of luck with your final exam and thesis, big bull
hope everything gets sorted with that thyroid, and everything else, can't offer advise on, but can offer my attention

Thank you for your attention. I also hope that everthing will get sorted-out. That's why I'm seeing the doctor.

1. I bet all will go well, if you put time, effort, and energy into something as crucial as that, I think they will be able to see that. So I know it's nerve wracking to have to wait for the answer, but I think it'll be worth it.

2. Thank God that everything is working right. If your levels are off that can be fixed easily. And at least you can rule out Thyroid cancer because if you did have cancer you wouldn't have the levels your at, at all. But I feel really bad that you have to wait until August to get some answers. I mean that really blows. Myself personally would be on the phone trying to push back the date to at least into late July. This is why I hate doctors, you've got a condition that you're obviously concerned about and they just see you as a procedure that they have room for on *insert day and time here* when it's convient for them, nevermind that you'll be worrying about this for a month. That's pretty shitty if you ask me. I would totally pitch a fit, politely as I'm not an ass, just that I know what's right, and making you wait that long is a crime. :(

3. I'm probably missing pieces here, is your mom deceased? Or is she out of the picture? But by your tone, it sounds like he's cheating on your mom. And depending on what type of man he is, weather he pushes everything under the rug, or gets angry, or can actually listen, there are a bunch of ways you can go about this. If it bothers you-confront him, but you'll have to pick which way depending on the few I mentioned above. If he avoids it be honest and straight-forward with how you feel no matter how he ignores you, and then let him think about it. If he gets angry you have to put everything from your perspective I feel, I am, do not put anything on him-he'll see that as attacking, and he'll escalate. If he listens then that's the easiest, and just have a conversation. But I'm missing peices here so don't worry if this advice really doesnt help.

4. You feel this way because you're insecure about so many things, there are so many uncertainties that you can't make heads or tails of anything, and if someone close to you - like your father is hurting you, who can you trust, you lack a rock to stand on and everything around you is crumbling. So you allow yourself to feel happy, and then when you catch yourself, you're terrified because normal for you has been the world falling appart, so you have convinced yourself that being on unstable ground is normal, but there's another part that knows that's not true - so you are constantly at war within youself, and when your at war within yourself, how can you let anyone in? So you push away because you don't want to be hurt and then realize you're alone. There's nothing wrong with you. Mood swing are normal when your life is this unstable. Try writing. My mom kicked me out and I litterally had no where to go, and people I thought weren't my friends showed up and helped me out weather it was gathering up items or managing who's house I was going to stay at, people helped me and it was that day I found out who were truely my friends or not. But I found that there was so much uncertainty in my life I found myself crying each night, until I started wrting "letters to god" I would pour every ounce of my emotion on those pages and then tear them up and let them blow in the wind, or burn them, flush them ect. And it wasn't often that I wrote the letters, but close enough that I could remember what topic I was on last to touch on it. And things got better, but I found that writing and destroying my letters was very therapeutic.

5. Talk to your mate, and if you can't find the words, write them. Put points to touch on, or full sentences. Tell them everything you feel about moving in with them. But trust me mving out is such a releif. You have so much more control and things gradually settle. If your worried that you and your mate will fight or it will be too close for comfort tell them be honest and open. And if you find that maybe living together is a bad idea-move out on your own, but close enough that you can still be together. But the key is being open and honest, and like I mentioned writing might help you with this tremendously.

And hey, if you need to talk I'm no therapist but I'm more than happy to hear you out ond offer advice.

2. Oh man, by what you've said, I can tell that you don't live in Poland. Our health service works in a very specific way... You get early appointments if you go to a private cabinet. If you wanna go with the free health care, then you've got to wait. A LOT. So, yeah, I'm actually happy that I managed to arrange an appointment in August, believe me!

3. Yes, you're missing some pieces: my mom is deceased. And I don't really mind my dad meeting someone (at least I think I don't), it's just.. ya know, what I said in the journal. I can't really talk with my dad, he's rather dominant and treats me like a kid. I don't have anything to say in this house. One of the reasons I wanna move out.

4. Ya know, that actually sounds convincing. I've been getting so much mixed signals from my dad my whole life that I've never really known what's going on and what to believe in. Probably the reason why I'm so screwed up now.