Well, this is problematic... I should have seen it coming, though. The choose-your-own-adventure scene was a bust; about 10 people showed up throughout the course of the story, coming in and promptly out like a revolving door. There was only one active person--one who actually voted on things and decided how the story went; however, he was uncomfortable in that position and so was I. It took forever. I guess I just don't have a strong enough fanbase. Then again, this was kinda last-minute, so I'm still going to try tomorrow at around noon CST.

One thing I will say: even if I had a decent group of people there, it still doesn't feel nearly as satisfying as a true roleplay. Of course, those have gotten a lot harder for me as of late. I don't have a lot of friends or RP partners, and as of late the entire list has been almost completely unavailable. Plus, the internet cafe I'm in blocks one of my favorite RP sites. Of course, the whole reason I've been going to internet cafes is because my internet connection's been broken for almost two months now. That's a long time without any roleplays. Stories are nice because I can control everything, and pictures can be quite sexy... but they both lack that interaction, that connection. That's what I long for most right now; my heart and libido both ache for some sort of give-and-take.

It's not just roleplaying that I've been thinking about. I've never had a real, adult romance before. I'm in my late 20s now and will be finally settled down in about three weeks or so. It just feels like time. Of course, having not even been in the loop in the first place and being socially awkward makes things like meeting new people and flirting rather difficult. I'm beginning to feel lethargic and jaded from all my failed attempts.