this is a road less taken, but it is not a road completely unwalked...and ironically, it is quite close to the path often taken. so much so that you can easily see the trail that many have taken.

as for what i mean, this isn't uncommon for a person like you...if someone gets into crossdressing, then eventually, after doing it a bit, they start to question their gender or their personal identity. and if they masquerade online as a female, that can have the same effect...both put together, and it can seem like a double whammy.

i was going through the exact same thing. I had Manji initially, and then i got into crossdressing, and it made me question myself. however, you should make note of the hard facts: you are you. you are not the clothes you wear, you are not the things you buy, you are not what people tell you you should be, and you are not the things you pretend to be online. As sad as that may sound, it is a bit of the truth. It may seem confusing, but think about it: you made up Kyuubi, but she is a part of you because you've had her long enough to grow attached to her. You feel like Dani, but you aren't her just because you put on an outfit. in a sense, you and Dani are one! Whether you choose to wear the clothes you identify with her or not is up to you, but Dani really isn't that different from you, is she? She's just a side of you that you don't let out that often...maybe some inner desires, or repressed feelings...

and you are not who people tell you you are...you know your own personality, you know what you like and dislike, and then why not be yourself! =) only you knows how to be you, and only you are the best at being you! yeah, you may question your gender identity from time to time, but that happens to everyone that crossdresses and winds up liking it! heck, it happened to me, too!

from my personal advice, it's hard to crossdress often and pull it off as perfectly normal....heck, i'd be scared as hell to go out in public dressed as a woman on any day other than halloween owo;;;

as far as that girl you like...unfortunately...she's taken :/ I've spent tons of time chasing after girls that were already taken....hell, I chased one for 2 years! and the sad part is, i never really even had a chance in hell with the girl :/ it drove me to love sickness and depression x.x and it sucked!


what i would do, if i were you, is i would try to move on...yeah, it might hurt, but she's already taken! just let things run their course...maybe afterwards, after she's had time to recover, if things don't pan out for her and she breaks up, you could come into her life and be the one...ALTERNATIVELY, though, if you move on and keep her off your mind, you'll have opened yourself up to everyone else rather than limiting yourself to one person that's already taken! and the funny thing is, even if you're still waiting on her, but aren't fully concentrating on getting her, you might just find "the one"....you can't ever get that if you're focusing solely on that one girl!

some people would say "there's plenty of fish in the sea", but I say "The World is Yours!" take it or leave it, you can conquer the world if you choose so, so why wait up on that one person you like, when there are plenty of things to do, sights to see, people to meet, and fun times to be had? :3 besides, with your looks, i'm sure you could snag someone of either gender, if you want and if you play your cards right xP