So it's been a few days and I have not updated you guys at all. I am still in the dark about a lot of things. I still really haven't got much word from him. However, I have heard that I am being blamed for everything that has happened. Although, I hope that is not truly how he feels I can actually see it as his opinion. It brings a lot of mixed emotions up to the surface but mostly fear that something horrible will happen. I fear for many things, safety for my animals, safety for me, and safety for him. I am getting a lot of second hand information so nothing is 100% for sure. He won't talk to anyone. He has ignored my requests. Which of course I did not ask personally. Legal authorities are probably going to be involved on both sides now. All I want is this to all be worked out. I never wanted anyone to get hurt. I didn't/don't want my relationship to end. With that said, I will not live a life where I am not a partner. That I am less then equal and I am treated as such. I want to be able to talk civilized but I fear pride will get in the way. I will not be blamed for everything when everything was not my fault. WE had a fight so we are both to blame for being involved. It's never one sided. I admitted my wrong doings. I've tried to make this right. I can only pray that everything will work itself out, because right now my heart is filled with dread and I can not see anything good happening from all of this.