I feel so lonely and scare. Why I feel scare well, I scare if my dad know that I am Gay what will happen because I know my dad so well. He against it so all this years I been keep this secret away from my dad and family even from my friend because the society had against gay and other thing. Well, one day I will have to tell my dad about that but I don't have the courage to tell and I scare what will happen when he find out and doesn't accept me as disown or kick out......that really scare me and I don't know to turn to anyone at all. So I will just keep this secret for long as could keep it, but it really make me feel lonely allot when I know some few online friend are living with his mate and stay together I feel happy for them I really am happy for them, I also feel jealous about them at the same time.

I just hope, wish, or pray some day I will be with my mate and live together forever and doesn't feel outcast from the family or other we both know.....but that will have to find out.....