Okay, for the past few years, I've been desperately trying to work on all of these art requests, but now... I don't know if I'm ever able to get them done. Here I am, free for the summer, wanting to work on them, but when I start... I either hate how it's turning out and start all over, or I end up losing interest in drawing.
I've been trying also to hang out with my friends, but when I hang out with them, I'm usually the one that sits alone, at a separate table while they're doing stuff. I try to go out, to get inspired, but I lose my inspiration after I find it. I try and go get a job, but everyone I've tried applying to, continue rejecting me.
Every single day I tell myself "Okay, you've got to get this done! They're counting on you to get it done!" I try and I try, but to no avail... I end up quitting before even making any progress.
I'm on the verge of deciding whether or not to stop drawing completely. There's nothing I can think of to try and cheer up and get to working on all those drawings. I end up playing on the xbox, hoping that playing video games might fill that void... I'm not sure what I can do to get out of this depression... I act all happy and such because I don't want my friends and family to worry, and when they're concerned and offer their help; I end up pushing them away and separating myself from them.
I don't know what to do...