u have to think of it like this he wouldnt want u to be sad

and i understand that but its so hard to not cry when ever i see anything you know what i mean i just want to not cry and be happy when i see those things now instead the tears just wont stop flowing

i understand
its ok to let it out

but i hate seeing u cry tho

Dont you have any friends to talk to that were close to Vex? I'm sorry you didn't have anyone to talk to. I'm sorry that you're really taking hard, I didn't expect that you would. But I am glad that you do, because it shows that you really did love him and I like hearing how people are affected. So you are more than welcome to vent to me. You can ask me all the questions you want to about vex and even about what happened. You deserve to know the details and hopefully it can give you some closure. You are also more than welcome to attend the memorial that I will hold for him next year, VexCon. I don't have a cellphone but you can call me on my house phone and we will talk till your heart's content, or at least I will try to bring you some peace. But it's ok to cry. I have realized that I have held my emotions and my tears from this believe it or not. So I need to cry and let it all out. *hugs you tight*

I am glad that Vex was a great friend to you and that he impacted your life positively. I know I cannot replace him, but can try to be just as good as a friend that he was.

just reading this made me smile even if the tears flow that makes me feel so happy that i have someone to talk to about it. An no i dont have anyone down here to talk to about vex because every time i try i break down so bad that they either get all oh woah to much or just dont know what to do