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So Long, And Thanks For All The Yiffs
17 years ago
*pads in one last time with a big goofy grin* Been a while, hasn't it?
The past few months have been . . . exciting? Enlightening? DEFINITELY interesting, aggrivating, frustrating and some of the best in my life in just how my world has changed and all that.
The Dragon (
phantomgraph) is yes, out on his own out here in the middle of nowhere, approximately four blocks away from me (and I've moved as well, have a house now). He's gotten "the" job I hoped he would at the company I told him he had to bust his hump to try to get into, and he loves it, is doing well enough for himself (bills paid, eating, just enough to not have to WORRY), and I'm lucky that I get to see him once a week now. Big change from living with a person, I'll say that, though I think he appreciates the break. *looks back over his shoulder and throws the blue dracine a raspberry, to which the lion receives back a single arched eyebrow, a snide grin and grumble, and an elbow nudge*
For those of you who have tried calling me, the Dragon has had my cellphone the past several months and thus when I got your messages, it was generally days after you left them, at some odd hour, and we were in the middle of running his errands or something so don't take any offense that I never rang. Yes, I have my phone back now but my schedule is no better; I have a new position at work that keeps me from being able to randomly chat like I used to on weekdays, Saturdays is Dragon Day (and don't anybody DARE get in the middle of my Dragon Day! *snarls* Okay, okay, we're just doing laundry and grocery shopping and hanging out, but its rude to sit and chat on the phone when you're with company, as you know) and Sundays is my day to do housework, spend time with the family, and try like blazes to get this trip to see Swampwulf with Fox and Wolfmonkey organized (another fun headache, I just can't wait until it actually happens this fall!). So I guess what I'm saying is that those of you with my cell are welcome to try ringing me, but my opportunity to chat, or even return calls, is small . . . this itty bitty little three inch space right here, that includes the Chiklets but not the erasers. I.E. You very likely are not going to hear back at any sort of speed, but it is not because of you, its because I simply do not have the time any more. Hell, I barely have enough time to call my own brother once a week if I am lucky!
And as such, and from the title of this, and how long I have been gone in general I think you all know where this is heading . . . I'm done. :) No, not in the sense of OMG I'M LEAVING THE FANDOM FOREVER AND YOU ALL SUCK, but simply I don't have the time any more, my interests have been taken over by my job, family, and this big blue scaley thing that has wyrmed his way into my life *gets the flat side of a spade-tipped tail in the back of the head*, and the five minutes I have here and there, frankly, I just don't feel like drawing furs, looking at drawings of furs, or talking about drawings of furs, because it is really just too draining between the posturing and the drama and all that. A fun diversion when you have the time to kill, but when you don't, just a distraction that you end up feeling guilty over when you can't take part. I can't do it any more, not now.
But like I said, this isn't an "angry at the fandom leaving"; actually I'll probably be hitting a con again in a couple of years (I'm owed one! *nips the Dragon* XD ) just to hang out G.G.-style and hopefully watch the door try to kill people again with BlueHeeler. Gah, oh yeah, they're changing hotels. *sighs* It better have a revolving door. And if I end up doing another trade with the Fox again or something I'm sure the art half will make its way up somewhere. I think I'm as clear as I can be on any prior commitments, if anyone has any concerns or anything please leave me a PM here, I'll check it until *checks calendar* May 7th, but past that . . . well, I had a "get ahold of me" message up since November so I consider that fair notice if there is anything left outstanding. My email is now dead and defunct from lack of time to check it, so make sure you leave a message HERE in PM's, SOON, if I owe you something.
Beyond that . . . well, a few folks here know how ragged I ran when the Dragon lived with me, and I agree with them that I am in need of a good long break now; if I said anything else claiming that I would try to keep in touch or involved with the community, I would have a Dragon sitting on my head to pin me down to keep me from overworking again, or a wolfmonkey trying to pay my way to a beach in New Zealand for a month . . . hmm. I'm wondering why these are bad things, sometimes.
*dragon claws grab the lion by the tail and drag him back a bit to watch another DVD of M*A*S*H* reruns*
*shrugs with a lionish, happy smile*
I'll miss you folks, here. See ya. :)
The past few months have been . . . exciting? Enlightening? DEFINITELY interesting, aggrivating, frustrating and some of the best in my life in just how my world has changed and all that.
The Dragon (
phantomgraph) is yes, out on his own out here in the middle of nowhere, approximately four blocks away from me (and I've moved as well, have a house now). He's gotten "the" job I hoped he would at the company I told him he had to bust his hump to try to get into, and he loves it, is doing well enough for himself (bills paid, eating, just enough to not have to WORRY), and I'm lucky that I get to see him once a week now. Big change from living with a person, I'll say that, though I think he appreciates the break. *looks back over his shoulder and throws the blue dracine a raspberry, to which the lion receives back a single arched eyebrow, a snide grin and grumble, and an elbow nudge* For those of you who have tried calling me, the Dragon has had my cellphone the past several months and thus when I got your messages, it was generally days after you left them, at some odd hour, and we were in the middle of running his errands or something so don't take any offense that I never rang. Yes, I have my phone back now but my schedule is no better; I have a new position at work that keeps me from being able to randomly chat like I used to on weekdays, Saturdays is Dragon Day (and don't anybody DARE get in the middle of my Dragon Day! *snarls* Okay, okay, we're just doing laundry and grocery shopping and hanging out, but its rude to sit and chat on the phone when you're with company, as you know) and Sundays is my day to do housework, spend time with the family, and try like blazes to get this trip to see Swampwulf with Fox and Wolfmonkey organized (another fun headache, I just can't wait until it actually happens this fall!). So I guess what I'm saying is that those of you with my cell are welcome to try ringing me, but my opportunity to chat, or even return calls, is small . . . this itty bitty little three inch space right here, that includes the Chiklets but not the erasers. I.E. You very likely are not going to hear back at any sort of speed, but it is not because of you, its because I simply do not have the time any more. Hell, I barely have enough time to call my own brother once a week if I am lucky!
And as such, and from the title of this, and how long I have been gone in general I think you all know where this is heading . . . I'm done. :) No, not in the sense of OMG I'M LEAVING THE FANDOM FOREVER AND YOU ALL SUCK, but simply I don't have the time any more, my interests have been taken over by my job, family, and this big blue scaley thing that has wyrmed his way into my life *gets the flat side of a spade-tipped tail in the back of the head*, and the five minutes I have here and there, frankly, I just don't feel like drawing furs, looking at drawings of furs, or talking about drawings of furs, because it is really just too draining between the posturing and the drama and all that. A fun diversion when you have the time to kill, but when you don't, just a distraction that you end up feeling guilty over when you can't take part. I can't do it any more, not now.
But like I said, this isn't an "angry at the fandom leaving"; actually I'll probably be hitting a con again in a couple of years (I'm owed one! *nips the Dragon* XD ) just to hang out G.G.-style and hopefully watch the door try to kill people again with BlueHeeler. Gah, oh yeah, they're changing hotels. *sighs* It better have a revolving door. And if I end up doing another trade with the Fox again or something I'm sure the art half will make its way up somewhere. I think I'm as clear as I can be on any prior commitments, if anyone has any concerns or anything please leave me a PM here, I'll check it until *checks calendar* May 7th, but past that . . . well, I had a "get ahold of me" message up since November so I consider that fair notice if there is anything left outstanding. My email is now dead and defunct from lack of time to check it, so make sure you leave a message HERE in PM's, SOON, if I owe you something.
Beyond that . . . well, a few folks here know how ragged I ran when the Dragon lived with me, and I agree with them that I am in need of a good long break now; if I said anything else claiming that I would try to keep in touch or involved with the community, I would have a Dragon sitting on my head to pin me down to keep me from overworking again, or a wolfmonkey trying to pay my way to a beach in New Zealand for a month . . . hmm. I'm wondering why these are bad things, sometimes.
*dragon claws grab the lion by the tail and drag him back a bit to watch another DVD of M*A*S*H* reruns*
*shrugs with a lionish, happy smile*
I'll miss you folks, here. See ya. :)
i didn't think i was JUST a part of the community to you and i don't want to overwork you with saying hi or something. hell, if i DO manage to get ahold of you while you and the Dragon are hanging out i'll talk to him too if i can still get a couple of minutes with you. I had no idea about a dragon moving in with you for any reason. XP
Dude, you even responded to one of the several journals that I left outlining why I was not around. It even said I did not have my phone, it asked people not to call because I could not call back, and I don't think I could have made it ANY more obvious than post after post of "where am I, what is happening with me, and why people are not hearing from me". If you didn't read the messages before posting, I'm sorry. Not my fault. and in the past six months my life has changed like you would not BELIEVE. I am lucky to get 5 hours of sleep a night and am running non-stop now except for my one blessed evening a week I actually get to sit down and chill after dinner over some conversation with my bud.
I posted this not to piss folks off but because the very few folks I have been able to see on occasion (you know, because I'm going on vacation with them, or lived with them, or something else that if I did not screech to a halt for five minutes something in my life literally would have fallen apart because I did not take care of it?) suggested it might be a good idea to say goodbye rather than leave things hanging. it SUCKS having to say "I have to move on, I simply do not have the time for everything any more without wanting to jump off a cliff, I'll talk when I can but I don't know when that will be".
BUT
I will not get guilt tripped over it either, especially when I did all I could to keep folks informed. Life's choices suck sometimes but we have to make them.
*throws a glare to a couple of people*
THIS is why I did not say goodbye! People would get pissed over shit beyond my control and it would come to no good.
i wasn't trying yo guilt trip you and if that's all you think of me then fine, but don't go reading into this more than there is.
drama, sorry to bring some extra drama into your life when i posted it. you don't want to say goodbye, fine, at least i will. goodbye.
The reasons behind my own planned departure are numerous, and I won't clog your comment section with anything anyone might accuse of being "furry drama" on my part... I'm just simply saying, that's all.
And, I feel it was an honor and a privilege to have gotten to know you out here, Tenzy. I you leave because you feel you have to/need to or anything like that, then you're surely talking to one who can relate to some extent or other I would think.
Also, it was none other than Lu Axl Rose who once sung the following relevant lyrics... "nothing last forever... even cold November rain". granted, the dude never saids anything about Lion furs like yourself. *Shrugs* ^.^
Seriously though... the fandom CAN be a nice place sometimes, but not always. A lot of it stems from the simple fact that people have this bad habit of not treating others the way they want to be treated.
Then again, that's not just a "fandom thing", that's more like an internets thing... maybe a rl thing as well for that matter. Art (of ANY kind) is a tough thing to do well consistently to begin with. And, even when we put out kick tail looking art (which you always did), it still ends up eating into so much of our time and our lives.
And, in the end, I can't help but wonder a little if it (art) asks more of us all than it gives back in return. Of course, anyone who merely is a watcher on FA or DA cannot relate to that end of things I would think. (The whole hard work/time consuming aspect). None of us should really put aside other things in life solely for this, no matter what, I guess. *Shrugs*
Plus, another way to look at is that...no matter what, even the things we initially LOVE to do can potentially grow stale over time. And, as time goes on, there can get to feel like less and less incentive to stick with it, and more and more incentive to simply move on to trying something else, perhaps.
We've all got to do what we've got do. If sticking around is it... more power to you... if leaving because you just feel it's necessary, then likewise, more power to you. I hope you believe me when I tell you that no matter what... come hell or highwater, I was always in your corner Tenzy. So, again... whatever decision you make and for whatever reasons, I've got your back on that.
I don't know about any other fur, but as for me, I feel you'll be missed. You definitely brought something to the table out here. Hopefully I likewise have done the same in my tenure. God knows I tried my damdest, I think.
*Hugs*
So, if that doesn't work out, i have a lot of other days to choose from, but i won't list anymore cos i think you get the point:p
But for my first few trips, i don't think i can meet anyone unless they come to meet me/us Mostly because i don't /want/ to meet anyone else other than the one i go over there to meet, but also because it requires planning that i'm not really willing to do:p I'm more the spontaneous guy who just takes things as they come:)
But i'll email you some time and we'll see what can happen. Even if we just meet for a few hours or something, that works for now:p
Oh, and btw, i passed on that Disney World job opportunity. They made demands from me for the job interview that i was not willing to do for them. And the information they wanted from me breaks several of my own personal rules for how i deal with the world, so i passed on it. I am not willing to give away that level of personal info about myself and my family... But thanks for telling me about it, it /was/ an option at least^^,
Until we meet...Uh.. Again...:p For the first time:p There is no saying for a moment like this:s Oh well... Take care^^,
{If you're use of your title is an indication of your literary knowledge, then you'll understand this response....}
In any event, best of luck to you and hope to see you pop up from time to time...
Cheers!
Ahh well.. at least it sounds like you're getting your head on straight. Good luck, and maybe I'll see ya around someplace.
Hey I wish you all the luck Tensik.
I enjoyed the art I saw from you, you're very talented. I hope that someday you'll have the time to grace us again with your work and your words and hey... maybe i'll see ya at a con(I have yet to go to my first >.<)
So, so long and fairweel, i wish you and your dragon the best : )
have fun <3 and don't forget the old FA ;3
no matter how much of a Drama pot it is XD
But one of the nice things about Furry is that it's like being part of a BIG family, and as anyone knows, being in a family you can never really say 'So long' and just walk away. Oh, you'll be part of that other life, the one you call your real one, but sometime, someplace, you'll find an unexpected paw on your shoulder and someone saying, "Say, aren't you Tensik?" and there you'll be with a member of your "family".
All the very best -- and remember as a lion -- always face the sun and never let the hyenas bother you.
PG }:8>
Be good if you can. If you can't, then be good at it. Either I'll see you again sometime or I won't, but take good care of yourself and your loved ones either way because Lord knows they could use something slightly resembling sanity. I suck at goodbyes, so I'll just say I hope I see you later. In the meantime I'll have to find someone else to be inappropriately random with. =p
*squeeze/fluff*