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Guess what! AM ON DRUGS!!!!!!
13 years ago
seriously after many long years of suffering and all the red tape of the health system , i am finally properly diagnosed (i hope) and most importantly MEDICATED
apparently i have a form of dyspraxia , i have problems processing language and information , with out getting in to technical details , whats easy for you is hard ,tiring, stressful work for me.
The systems are a lot like ADD (ADHD) and can be treated in a similar fashion and medication but unlike ADD it doesn't go away with age.
Other significant symptoms i had to live with (and suffer) was serious anxiety ,depression as well as significant concentration and organization issues.
As much as i love my job , at the end of a days work (and a weeks work) i was totally mentally exhausted, same as with Working with photoshop , after about 30 min of concentration my brain just cant take any more, witch enplane why some of my project took days and weeks instead of just hours.
Note things i do not have to concentrate on "like free hand sketching" i can do with out stress.
am official at the end of day 2 of being MEDICATED and the vial has been lifted from my eyes .
Including my ongoing therapy am now prescribe psychostimulant "feels like i drank 5 espressos at once" interesting thing , coffee is a psychostimulant as well so i might have been self medicating.
speeking of self medicating , i am frigging lucky that i don't drink,smoke or do dope , that would have made my cause a tad unsalvageable .
ok back to my defective brain , day one was awesome , afther about 30 min of my first pill, my attention/perception started to whats the word in english ? never mind , in breef paying attention was no longer a chore , it was clear and easy and for the first time after a day of work , I DID NOT CRASH for two hours like usual.
DAY 2 i may have pushed my self a tad hard , i had a poor nights sleep "check side effects" i took on a couple of tasks that pushed my brain a bit hard and i faltered a bit BUT doing the same thing last year , i would have crashed and burned, interestingly enuff unlike my usual mid week routine ,did some chores, i cooked my self dinner (instead of frozen or can) and cleaned up after. AND that with having a mentally challenging day .
ther are a couple of side effect i have to deal with , No. one because it's a stimulant , getting a good night sleep has been an issue , second is my appetite has been weird , my Stomach is saying feed me and my brain sais am not hungry, next is i have to watch my caffeine intake , after my second cup of joe i felt nauseous ,so got to cut down on the coffee and soda .
So far i haven't tryd drawing yet "sort of one of my fears , once medicated , i would lose my wonky creative side But i have been painting my Warhammer stuff again , am defensively more focused and less tired.
it's 11 pm and my meds are wearing off , took me one hour ,thirty minutes to wright this down.
First persons to awarer back with something encouraging will get a free artistic request (with in reason)
apparently i have a form of dyspraxia , i have problems processing language and information , with out getting in to technical details , whats easy for you is hard ,tiring, stressful work for me.
The systems are a lot like ADD (ADHD) and can be treated in a similar fashion and medication but unlike ADD it doesn't go away with age.
Other significant symptoms i had to live with (and suffer) was serious anxiety ,depression as well as significant concentration and organization issues.
As much as i love my job , at the end of a days work (and a weeks work) i was totally mentally exhausted, same as with Working with photoshop , after about 30 min of concentration my brain just cant take any more, witch enplane why some of my project took days and weeks instead of just hours.
Note things i do not have to concentrate on "like free hand sketching" i can do with out stress.
am official at the end of day 2 of being MEDICATED and the vial has been lifted from my eyes .
Including my ongoing therapy am now prescribe psychostimulant "feels like i drank 5 espressos at once" interesting thing , coffee is a psychostimulant as well so i might have been self medicating.
speeking of self medicating , i am frigging lucky that i don't drink,smoke or do dope , that would have made my cause a tad unsalvageable .
ok back to my defective brain , day one was awesome , afther about 30 min of my first pill, my attention/perception started to whats the word in english ? never mind , in breef paying attention was no longer a chore , it was clear and easy and for the first time after a day of work , I DID NOT CRASH for two hours like usual.
DAY 2 i may have pushed my self a tad hard , i had a poor nights sleep "check side effects" i took on a couple of tasks that pushed my brain a bit hard and i faltered a bit BUT doing the same thing last year , i would have crashed and burned, interestingly enuff unlike my usual mid week routine ,did some chores, i cooked my self dinner (instead of frozen or can) and cleaned up after. AND that with having a mentally challenging day .
ther are a couple of side effect i have to deal with , No. one because it's a stimulant , getting a good night sleep has been an issue , second is my appetite has been weird , my Stomach is saying feed me and my brain sais am not hungry, next is i have to watch my caffeine intake , after my second cup of joe i felt nauseous ,so got to cut down on the coffee and soda .
So far i haven't tryd drawing yet "sort of one of my fears , once medicated , i would lose my wonky creative side But i have been painting my Warhammer stuff again , am defensively more focused and less tired.
it's 11 pm and my meds are wearing off , took me one hour ,thirty minutes to wright this down.
First persons to awarer back with something encouraging will get a free artistic request (with in reason)
Good luck to you bro, I have psychological disorders (like a bit of ADD)... I had trouble getting to talk as a kid (took speech therapy for years), but that seems to have been fixed.
Medicine didn't help me with the rest of my disorder's, though I'm fine to the point that I don't need it. I hope this medicine works for you! Good luck bro!