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Its my fault...
13 years ago
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It always is. the water bills was high this month, so I was yelled at by my father for that, aparently its my fault. because he said "you never turn the damn water off when i tell you to on the garden" ok thats BS cuse i always do, I turn it off within the halfhour he tells me. so he screams at me earlyer.. making me feel like a worthless pile of shit.. bad enough i got turned down for the jobs i aplied to.. i already feel like shit from that. amung other reasons i feel depressed as fuck. i have 30$ to my name from babysitting my niece. which my cat needs food.. and my cat means so much to me right now.. if it wasnt for him i would have prolly just offed myself by now. im to the point of dropping him off my friends who offered to take him in, and just go homeless for a while.. till i can find a way to get a new place to stay, because to be honest.. i love my dad to death.. but we dont get along all the time.. we are to much alike.. so we clash. if its not something its another im in trouble for.. i can only do so much i am one damn person.. apling for jobs, medicare, SSI every day. inbetween cleaning the house,trying to keep up with dishes, my own and dads laundry which is piled up now cuse he yelled at me for useing up to much water...
so sorry for the ranting.. but.. incase you all dont see me for a while.. its cuse.. eather dad turned off the net, i went homeless because i cant take it anymore, or im out looking for money.. hmm i wonder if i should just WHORE myself out.. maybe then i could have money dispite the STD risks...
so sorry for the ranting.. but.. incase you all dont see me for a while.. its cuse.. eather dad turned off the net, i went homeless because i cant take it anymore, or im out looking for money.. hmm i wonder if i should just WHORE myself out.. maybe then i could have money dispite the STD risks...
Btw, you should start to take a pic every time you turn water off so you have evidence which you can show him if he yells you about it, it should make him keep his mouth shut about your use of water.
But, he may just think you're a smart ass for doing that. Meaning, it may just piss him off that he's proven wrong. That said, I had a job where daily, i would get the supervisor asking what i had got done, then ask well what did I do all day. And I would tell what i did, and she would respond, well there's 4 hours worth of stuff. what did you do the rest of the time....
SOO, i made a log of my day, when i did every little thing, including talk to someone in hall, bathroom, talked to costumer on phone, went to clinic, etc. She looked, said ok, and stopped asking me. Point being, it might help. It might not. If he's the kind of person, who's stressed and looking for someone to take it out on, it won't help.
Sorry to hear things aren't going well.