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Just an update
17 years ago
Well What Can I say... Every since I broke up with Jeffrey (Yamibliss) on December... I lost my self. My life suddenly burst in a million pieces and I've been looking for each piece ever since... I may be lost... but not without a direction. I've been feeling extremely lonely. Right before I lost my mind I joined with a Fashion Designer almost full time.. been getting out of there around 3 to 4 am... what elses is there for me right now anyways?....
My desire to draw has faded, I've done a few things... most of my posts are old (they all have the dates written, you can tell the gaps between)
Just when I think things cannot get shittier somethings happens... Now It seems I cannot graduate until I pay some out of the blue Dept. Plus I lost my financial aid. it's all about bills and a bitch to crap your future.
I need my friends more than ever and I know they are close but... they feel far away.... Anthrocon it's going to be tough... (I'm going to AC this Year)
My desire to draw has faded, I've done a few things... most of my posts are old (they all have the dates written, you can tell the gaps between)
Just when I think things cannot get shittier somethings happens... Now It seems I cannot graduate until I pay some out of the blue Dept. Plus I lost my financial aid. it's all about bills and a bitch to crap your future.
I need my friends more than ever and I know they are close but... they feel far away.... Anthrocon it's going to be tough... (I'm going to AC this Year)
Saldy I'm not going to AC, so have fun there.
I've seen some people, gone to dinners... really I'm not into no one except one... one wich I had a past and... when he came into my life was not the best time.... we both fell in love with each other, but with my disfunctional relationship I declined him... didn't want to hurt no one... but I think if things weren't working since then, we should have broke up a lot sooner (about 3 years ago) gave my self some time and start a new with this person... I don't really wanna tell who he is but there is a drawing that says who.
I've been trying to go ahead again but no luckl so far... he is not responding... oh well... I love him still even if he does not love me back the way I do.
I can understand when it gets lonely I get that feeling too all the time and it bothers me to no end, probably does the same to you. Glad to hear your trying to do tons of activities to keep yourself busy and that is cool that you are doing that project with fashion design.
Ah, you've been trying dating with new people. That is kind of tough as for me It's been over a year and I still got nothing for me, although I have someone who I would love to date and be with. But like with you he is not responding back, but as for the person with me well lets just say he has a mate already but his mate treats him like crazy and we think he is cheating behind his back.
Personally I know everything will be good for you, I can feel it. At them lonely times you can talk to me if you wish, and I'm always into making new friends.
Cheers
Fuskr
are you guys so blind!??? you both miss eachother greatly and thing have been hell for both since you guys broke up, why the hell you guys come back togheter?!!!
Grrr
Just wait until I see you both! >.<