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Haunting Memoires - Laughing Through The Tears
13 years ago
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It's been almost 5 months since you left... And it still feels like I could just pick up the phone and text you....
It still doesn't feel like you're gone....
I'm sitting in my livingroom watching Spongebob with my daughter. We're both fans, lol.
Then out of the blue, she asks, "What would happen to you if you ate a Jellyfish?"
I pause for a minute, then bust out laughing.
For those of you who don't see where this is going, see below:
The last part of that... Yeah, so apparantly THAT is what happens to you when you eat a Jellyfish. XD
Then I immediately started choking back tears....
Vex is the one who introduced me to Julian Smith videos....
The first time I saw this was with him....
I still to this day can't scream, "I MADE THIS FOR YOU!" without wanting to cry, and I use to do that all the time....
I almost immediately started flashing back through all the good memories when my daughter asked this.
I saw all the smiles, all the craziness, all the good times.
All the memories we made together.
Gods do I miss it. Gods do I miss you.
I still can't believe you're gone...
I still cry regularly over your loss...
I still vascillate between the general sadness and the anger that you were taken from us.
I know it's all part of the grieving process, but I've never lost like this...
Vex was the closest person to my that I've ever lost, so all of this is new to me...
The suffering... The sadness... The lonliness... It's all so surreal...
I want to just pick up my phone, text him, and hear back from him like nothing happened.
Gods why can't this just all be a dream.....
As for the other remark, *squish*