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13 years ago
Can is not the same as must..
A personal rant story about myself and blah stuff. Damn.... I'm over using these journals for horrible personal vent and allowing you guys to see how horrible of a journal this is. LOL!
Anyways, it's something that I'm thinking of just for the day. What are dreams anyways? Seriously, people say dreams do come true. Albeit, it's hard to believe but it does happen. Dreams do come true. A dreamer who dreams is great but a dreamer who dreams and acts on the dream, will be greater. Once, a lecturer told me: Do you know who the poorest man in the world is? It's not a beggar in the streets nor a homeless person or anything. It's a person without a dream. A man without a dream cannot survive in this world. They don't know what they want, they will dream of nothing and they will have little to no motivation at all in life and thus, they fail, they die; leaving a way a pitiful life.
In a harsh way, it's true. If you do not have a dream to do something, you cannot push yourself forward or achieve anything. Yesterday, an old college mate of mine, very close because he was my first ever college mate when we first met on the first day of college. We had different courses in life but we took business studies. After foundation, we left to take out path, different path. I was into accounting and he was into marketing. Since then, college wasn't the same without him. He was a fun guy but really talkative in nature. Thus, why marketing was his major. Since then, we rarely see each other since our classes clashes and from then on, we stopped talking but we occasionally went out.
After college, we drifted, as everybody will after graduating. During that time, he was doing a business called direct selling but a different kind. With his talkative and outgoing nature, it was practically his domain to do that. From then on, he was actually really successful. He had a network building between him and as you've seen businessmen around, he has phones around to just keep in contact with his customers and everything. From there, you know... he has a dream. He told me, he has a dream. A dream with a better life. To live better! To drive an expensive car! A Lamborghini! To get a house that's three storey high and to get the better things in life. It's all about money. Money talks, money gets. That was his dream and he was well on his way.
Just today, I met him and he was going to introduce to me his business. His direct selling plan to gain more network and get more people to join. Since I was his friend, I was thinking about it, to help and join him in his success and for him to help me in terms of monetary value but I was skeptical. Sometimes, money isn't easy to come by and I am not the kind of person that's willing to go out there and do DIRECT SELLING or DOOR TO DOOR. Seriously, no. I am not that kind of person but what he told me really pushed me out.
What do you dream of having or to be?
Since then, after that meeting, I don't know what I want in life. I have... no dream. Guys, think about it. I'm sure everyone of you would dream of something, no? To dream of having more money, to go here, to enjoy life, anything. Mine? I have no dream... Why? Because the dream that I want, the desire that i want, isn't achievable. I lay there, on my bed and thought, my dream is nothing that I can achieve. With every ounce of energy that I placed into something, was it really worth it?
Spending six grueling months in my studies, just for one subject. I slaved and tried everything I could to pass but till now, till to date. I have not pass. I've dream of passing my professional course but it's so near yet so far. I practically failed at all the subjects that I took for that semester. Eventually, taking the subjects, again, for another six months. After one year doing the same thing, I fail. Was it really worth it?
Spending six grueling months at gym. By gods I tried what I can to workout. By the sixth month, guess what? That 'dream' of at least getting something for my pitiful body, just didn't yield result. Know what happened? I actually put on weight, added my fat percentage and mass and my body composition was worse off compared to the time where I wasn't working out. I planned, i tried dieting and stuff but guess it wasn't enough. Even with all those research, with all those tiring time at gym, doing away, still no result. Meanwhile, the dreamer who gyms for six months gets at least substantial result. Was it really worth it?
Dream... like I said... isn't something that I would look at. What is a dream? What ARE my dream? Money? I don't know. I want money but to have money and to not share it with anyone is horrible. I dream of having a lover but knowing where I stand, that wouldn't happen much.
FastSpeedy is the only one that I just... have really a true deep emotion about. I dream that one day... I could just go there, and have him in my arms. But then... no... it won't happen. I know it won't happen but i still continue to love. As I sit here and dream for something that's impossible, it just isn't possible.
Family love would be impossible if I've ever told my parents that I might look at love differently. My mum has been telling me about future life. It's like its set in stone. You must do this, you must do that. The word 'WHEN' you have a family is not there. It is not 'YOUR' family instead of WHEN. Which means, she expects to have grandkids, expects me to just go out and get a girl but I am unsure. I may lean more towards male and if my parents ever knew, it will be utterly impossible to stand strong with them and I'll just move out. I doubt that family love will ever exist once this is out and it's not going to stay in the closet for long. I'm 23, she expects me to get married by 28. meaning... i only have five more years to build my own stand of money and move on.
Till then... it's all a dream. A dream that I could never get. I dream of a certain tiger, to just have him here, and to just lay in bed and not talk for hours and to just... hold in an embrace. Perhaps that's a dream. A dream that will not be fulfilled within my lifespan.
What would i give to have a dream.
Anyways, it's something that I'm thinking of just for the day. What are dreams anyways? Seriously, people say dreams do come true. Albeit, it's hard to believe but it does happen. Dreams do come true. A dreamer who dreams is great but a dreamer who dreams and acts on the dream, will be greater. Once, a lecturer told me: Do you know who the poorest man in the world is? It's not a beggar in the streets nor a homeless person or anything. It's a person without a dream. A man without a dream cannot survive in this world. They don't know what they want, they will dream of nothing and they will have little to no motivation at all in life and thus, they fail, they die; leaving a way a pitiful life.
In a harsh way, it's true. If you do not have a dream to do something, you cannot push yourself forward or achieve anything. Yesterday, an old college mate of mine, very close because he was my first ever college mate when we first met on the first day of college. We had different courses in life but we took business studies. After foundation, we left to take out path, different path. I was into accounting and he was into marketing. Since then, college wasn't the same without him. He was a fun guy but really talkative in nature. Thus, why marketing was his major. Since then, we rarely see each other since our classes clashes and from then on, we stopped talking but we occasionally went out.
After college, we drifted, as everybody will after graduating. During that time, he was doing a business called direct selling but a different kind. With his talkative and outgoing nature, it was practically his domain to do that. From then on, he was actually really successful. He had a network building between him and as you've seen businessmen around, he has phones around to just keep in contact with his customers and everything. From there, you know... he has a dream. He told me, he has a dream. A dream with a better life. To live better! To drive an expensive car! A Lamborghini! To get a house that's three storey high and to get the better things in life. It's all about money. Money talks, money gets. That was his dream and he was well on his way.
Just today, I met him and he was going to introduce to me his business. His direct selling plan to gain more network and get more people to join. Since I was his friend, I was thinking about it, to help and join him in his success and for him to help me in terms of monetary value but I was skeptical. Sometimes, money isn't easy to come by and I am not the kind of person that's willing to go out there and do DIRECT SELLING or DOOR TO DOOR. Seriously, no. I am not that kind of person but what he told me really pushed me out.
What do you dream of having or to be?
Since then, after that meeting, I don't know what I want in life. I have... no dream. Guys, think about it. I'm sure everyone of you would dream of something, no? To dream of having more money, to go here, to enjoy life, anything. Mine? I have no dream... Why? Because the dream that I want, the desire that i want, isn't achievable. I lay there, on my bed and thought, my dream is nothing that I can achieve. With every ounce of energy that I placed into something, was it really worth it?
Spending six grueling months in my studies, just for one subject. I slaved and tried everything I could to pass but till now, till to date. I have not pass. I've dream of passing my professional course but it's so near yet so far. I practically failed at all the subjects that I took for that semester. Eventually, taking the subjects, again, for another six months. After one year doing the same thing, I fail. Was it really worth it?
Spending six grueling months at gym. By gods I tried what I can to workout. By the sixth month, guess what? That 'dream' of at least getting something for my pitiful body, just didn't yield result. Know what happened? I actually put on weight, added my fat percentage and mass and my body composition was worse off compared to the time where I wasn't working out. I planned, i tried dieting and stuff but guess it wasn't enough. Even with all those research, with all those tiring time at gym, doing away, still no result. Meanwhile, the dreamer who gyms for six months gets at least substantial result. Was it really worth it?
Dream... like I said... isn't something that I would look at. What is a dream? What ARE my dream? Money? I don't know. I want money but to have money and to not share it with anyone is horrible. I dream of having a lover but knowing where I stand, that wouldn't happen much.
FastSpeedy is the only one that I just... have really a true deep emotion about. I dream that one day... I could just go there, and have him in my arms. But then... no... it won't happen. I know it won't happen but i still continue to love. As I sit here and dream for something that's impossible, it just isn't possible.Family love would be impossible if I've ever told my parents that I might look at love differently. My mum has been telling me about future life. It's like its set in stone. You must do this, you must do that. The word 'WHEN' you have a family is not there. It is not 'YOUR' family instead of WHEN. Which means, she expects to have grandkids, expects me to just go out and get a girl but I am unsure. I may lean more towards male and if my parents ever knew, it will be utterly impossible to stand strong with them and I'll just move out. I doubt that family love will ever exist once this is out and it's not going to stay in the closet for long. I'm 23, she expects me to get married by 28. meaning... i only have five more years to build my own stand of money and move on.
Till then... it's all a dream. A dream that I could never get. I dream of a certain tiger, to just have him here, and to just lay in bed and not talk for hours and to just... hold in an embrace. Perhaps that's a dream. A dream that will not be fulfilled within my lifespan.
What would i give to have a dream.
OshiiRyuu
~oshiiryuu
When you have a dream, you have a goal that's allowing you to go foward to reach it or obtain it. Maybe if you actually try different methods to obtaining it FM, you could get closer?
holten
~holten
Dreams can do more things than one u just need to reach for it
