this world is not fair i understand that yet i don't, there is so much pain and it strikes with mindless cruelty. it hurts just to be alive some times. early tonight or was it yesterday i'm not sure anymore when this will be posted. there has been pain in the world for as long as there has been history. this is something i can neither confirm nor deny but i do know that we hurt each other daily and for no reason that i can understand. even is i write this i'm trying not to cry because one of my friends is in pain. the sources of their pain? some one i want to hurt very deeply and I've never meet them or heard their name. so why to i want to hurt them? because their actions hurt my friend deeply they took advantage of one of my friends childhood companions and for i don't know how long raped their child. the poor child not only suffered this abuse but she is now expecting and is not fully able to compered the situation form what i under stand. when confronted about this the person ins question became threatening and my friend who found out late was not there to take up for their friend at the time this hurt them as it hurts me that i'm not there to comfort them. the pain of being to late to help someone directly the pain of being unable to act. this are little pains that linger and fester in the wake of the greater pain of what wrongs that were created by this fiend. every hour since i've heart i think of things to punish this fiend ever half hours i think of things that if i was with my friend i could do to comfort them. every few minutes i think of my younger siblings and the world that are growing up and and pray for their safety. god knows i can't be there to watch over them all the time but i hope that he will.

god there are so many ways to hurt each other. to cause each other pain why can't we be other their helping each other. pushing ever so gently on another forward so that the other will gain : a little peace , a little happiness, another reason to smile. i don't want the world to hurt like it is now. i don't want pain both our own and other to be the future of you growing generation. i'm not saint. never let anyone confuse me with a bastion of piety or a follower of any one religion but i understand that they way things are going we can't survive. we can't live like these. Even our hopes for the future are becoming darker to where it is hard to tell are dreams form our nightmares. <b>this can not go on. we need a change. our children are crying. lets stop the pain </b>