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13 years ago
ok, I'm gonna do some vent here... siiiiiigh
so, I've been studying to become an english teacher, this is the 3rd year I'm coursing,but I'm still in first year, and I still can´t get almost anything of what they want to teach me. I read A LOT, almost all my free time since I know I'm not a fast learner of anything, even though I like english. it is a language that has served me a lot in my life and I would like to share this experience with my future students. so, I have motivation, I like studying, but still I can't finish ANY of my task and papers. I feel really guilty in front of my teachers because they give me more and more chances to hand in my work but nothing's coming out from this head. I have 4 tasks due to tomorrow and after tomorrow, and I don't know how I'm going to explain them that I couldn't finish anything during the winter recess, that has finished the last week. and even more, I'm starting to feel really bad at home, not because of having a terrible family, they are kind and supporting, they've helped my through these coulple of years but I'm starting to have an urge to move out. that would need me to get a full time job, leaving me with less time to invest in my education, but only if I'm lucky enough to get a job that allows me to afford renting a place for me - and because of several reasons, the economy in general and a local event - people now have one more excuse to raise up the price to rent an apartment. last but not least, my greatest wish is to leave this island and maeby go to live to Buenos Aires, and I know this is going to sound stupid but, this has been caused by a very special friend I met two years ago in Buenos Aires. he´s nice, cute, gentle chubby, but the most the important is that I feel so comfortable around him. I can be me and only me when I'm with him, not feeling weird like almost ALL of my friend have said me at least once since they've met meet, and almost EVERYTIME in our very first time we met each other. the only thing that could allow me that kind of trip would be to have a steady job there in Buenos aires, and since I have very few experience with jobs (currently I'm a partimer in a little hostel), a tittle in education would be a guarantee for a safe job for life, since there are not enough teachers anywhere here, in Argentina. I'm tired, I'm angry, I'm sad, but most of all, I'm stuck. I know what I want and what I have to do to achieve my goal, I do it, but still it's never good enough.
ok, I think that's all. I'll just go to my room and cry till I fall asleep.
byeeeeeeeeee
so, I've been studying to become an english teacher, this is the 3rd year I'm coursing,but I'm still in first year, and I still can´t get almost anything of what they want to teach me. I read A LOT, almost all my free time since I know I'm not a fast learner of anything, even though I like english. it is a language that has served me a lot in my life and I would like to share this experience with my future students. so, I have motivation, I like studying, but still I can't finish ANY of my task and papers. I feel really guilty in front of my teachers because they give me more and more chances to hand in my work but nothing's coming out from this head. I have 4 tasks due to tomorrow and after tomorrow, and I don't know how I'm going to explain them that I couldn't finish anything during the winter recess, that has finished the last week. and even more, I'm starting to feel really bad at home, not because of having a terrible family, they are kind and supporting, they've helped my through these coulple of years but I'm starting to have an urge to move out. that would need me to get a full time job, leaving me with less time to invest in my education, but only if I'm lucky enough to get a job that allows me to afford renting a place for me - and because of several reasons, the economy in general and a local event - people now have one more excuse to raise up the price to rent an apartment. last but not least, my greatest wish is to leave this island and maeby go to live to Buenos Aires, and I know this is going to sound stupid but, this has been caused by a very special friend I met two years ago in Buenos Aires. he´s nice, cute, gentle chubby, but the most the important is that I feel so comfortable around him. I can be me and only me when I'm with him, not feeling weird like almost ALL of my friend have said me at least once since they've met meet, and almost EVERYTIME in our very first time we met each other. the only thing that could allow me that kind of trip would be to have a steady job there in Buenos aires, and since I have very few experience with jobs (currently I'm a partimer in a little hostel), a tittle in education would be a guarantee for a safe job for life, since there are not enough teachers anywhere here, in Argentina. I'm tired, I'm angry, I'm sad, but most of all, I'm stuck. I know what I want and what I have to do to achieve my goal, I do it, but still it's never good enough.
ok, I think that's all. I'll just go to my room and cry till I fall asleep.
byeeeeeeeeee
