Well its weird how a simple thing can change so many life's, death is such a simple thing and yet it brings a tempest of emotions today I did something I havent done in years today I broke down crying, something I thought I had left behind in my old life the feeling was incredible I still feel the sorrow and now I fall once more into a deep depression, I can foresee the outcome I will morn and claw out of this hole I find myself falling into and yet I fear.... I fear for myself and I fear for my loved ones, I fear I'll do something I'll regret.... Or that I may not have the chance to regret, I am if anything a survivor, but that woman ment more to me than almost anything she literally saved my life and I will never forget her and all she did.

...... And in light of such love such kindness and such beauty we grant you the only gift befitting a being such as yourself, we grant you death... For only in death are we truly at peace
- Elders