My best efforts to settle into an artistic mindset are compromised at every turn, it's allways been so and so when my family are involved but lately it is growing next to impossible, even when i do finally get chance to sit down at my computer i'm too tired to even provide a consistent conversation. It's been like this ever since i came back from newzealand and had to move back in with my parents :( I really just cant get comfortable in my parents house but if all goes well i will be moving in a month or so :D

But yes it's been much worse these last few months due to my parents moving house, grandad passed away, i've had a cousin in intensive care.. we had to hear "she may not make it through the night" on 4 different occasions over 2 weeks >.0 (shes absolutly fine now, woke up and was out of hospital 2 days later) a friend had a car crash.. his legs plastered up.. I've had to help him do shopping and the relative fallout from all these problems including helping to run my grandads antique shop is leaving me.. exhausted.

So im sorry to those in my art lists.. i was doing quite well for about 2 weeks, i hit every goal i set myself but then my cousin went to hospital.. so i think untill i move.. I will have to put art in the backseat.. I will still doodle but i can't dedicate myself to any projects like i was starting to, i am trying.. but there is allways something creeping up on me.. today i had such a desire to draw, got through half a sketch and then the jaws theme tune might as well have started up!! I'm looking at the calender and realising how little I will be able to sit here and draw untill the end of september.

This is mostly aimed at those on messengers, really sorry guys, i dont like being silent on people but when i sit down I really just zone out, i even keep nodding off in my desk chair, It might be a bit different if i could sleep in.. but i just.. can;t.. sleep past 7:59... everyday i wake up.. allways 7:59 when i look at my alarm clock... allways.. fored myself to stay awake till 6am.. to try and break it but nope.. woke up 2 hours later 7:59.

I really can;t wait to move out.. ^_^; I'd already have gone, found a temp shared house untill my main move but i've promised to be here to help my parents move.. x_x