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Running out of Options
13 years ago
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I don't know anymore...
My therapist wanted to discuss furries yesterday. Which is fine, I suppose, except that furries have little to do with the state of my mind or whats wrong with me. Or with how to ease back into working life, if that is indeed possible. I need HELP.
The psychiatrist she tried to hook me up with hasn't called. I'm calling them tomorrow. We've had paperwork problems. Not a good start.
My neurologist evidently didn't schedule a results appointment. I'll have to call her tomorrow too.
General practitioner Dr. Haven't heard from him.
Missed my past couple of lupron shots for my endometriosis. Been so busy running around everywhere else, and more importantly, my parents are so busy I feel bad asking them for yet more drives to yet more appointments.
Therapist told me on the way out of appointment that someone called and told her my case at walgreens was closed? I have no idea. I wasn't contacted, that's for damn sure.
Mom wants me to apply for ebt, medicaid, and/or disability.
Dad doesn't want to help me with the legalese part of it all, because he thinks that applying for all that means I'm giving up and deciding to never go to work again.
I'm feeling so.... run down. I'm debating hospitalization again, but if it didn't end up helping all that much last time, what the hell is this time supposed to do?
And I got so lonely last time... I missed everyone.
Not that much anyone talks to me these days
...
how many people still read my posts anyways? still care?
.
My therapist wanted to discuss furries yesterday. Which is fine, I suppose, except that furries have little to do with the state of my mind or whats wrong with me. Or with how to ease back into working life, if that is indeed possible. I need HELP.
The psychiatrist she tried to hook me up with hasn't called. I'm calling them tomorrow. We've had paperwork problems. Not a good start.
My neurologist evidently didn't schedule a results appointment. I'll have to call her tomorrow too.
General practitioner Dr. Haven't heard from him.
Missed my past couple of lupron shots for my endometriosis. Been so busy running around everywhere else, and more importantly, my parents are so busy I feel bad asking them for yet more drives to yet more appointments.
Therapist told me on the way out of appointment that someone called and told her my case at walgreens was closed? I have no idea. I wasn't contacted, that's for damn sure.
Mom wants me to apply for ebt, medicaid, and/or disability.
Dad doesn't want to help me with the legalese part of it all, because he thinks that applying for all that means I'm giving up and deciding to never go to work again.
I'm feeling so.... run down. I'm debating hospitalization again, but if it didn't end up helping all that much last time, what the hell is this time supposed to do?
And I got so lonely last time... I missed everyone.
Not that much anyone talks to me these days
...
how many people still read my posts anyways? still care?
.
But thank you for commenting anyway!
And yeah, her focusing on furries was kind of annoying because it is just a fascination. It has nothing to do with state of mind, unless I show some kind of inability to separate fantasy and reality. Oh well. I guess it's still such an unfamiliar hobby that she wanted to make sure it wasn't something strange? *shrugs*
I know this was posted a while ago. I was away from FA for a while, so I'm just now starting to catch up on journals and stuff. It would be easier to just nuke everything, but I'm a bit ocd and keep thinking, "but what if I miss something important?" so I'm looking at everything except streaming and commissions.
I hope things will get better, but I haven't had any better luck with doctors. I dunno, if you need an ear, send me a note if you like; I can't offer much more, I can't even think of anything comforting to say.