(Friendly warning I like to squeeze my thoughts out fast,and have little grasp on grammar)

so many questions and so little patience I have for them,since I recently abandoned my whole "whats the meaning of life" query.
I mean who knew a few British folks had already figured that one out for me,somehow I don't feel quite at peace even now that I know....ya know?

so its the journey,not the destination that counts eh?

well where do I bloody well go from here.

so I like people two easily not sure why only certain people though just something about some folks gets me all stupid I suppose its chemical chemistry or something thought how could that work over the internet though?

I love so many things...I just happen to actually love so few really.

I love people though they are oh so bad to me,its an abusive relationship I know but I...well I swear there good on the inside you just don't know them like I do I could leave them if I wanted...don't judge me I'm not dependant on them!

I love furrs as 2 says I love furrs I get this deep fuzzy feeling down in my ass when I think of them,the part that sucks shit is that so many have two many complexes to count and are so meek and mixed up in themselves they loose touch with reality I've see it first hand quite a few times,it gotten to where when I'm talking to a furr I can't help but wonder if who I'm talking to is a real person or something someone cooked up in thur heads to insure well whatever it is they want to get out of being someone who they aren't.
peeps might say "you can't know who they are,you misjudge and think what you want about thows who are diffrent"

and you know what?
that may be true,maybe I don't know what the hell I'm talking about and inside I'm the one with all the problems I say almost everyone else has.
maybe

but who do we trust?
do I just believe them and take there word that I'm the fucked up one?

somehow a part of me does not thing thats a good idea,because really its just a choice of well being see.

I don't choose to believe in myself for the sake of being right,but because I can see myself as much less happy if I decide not two and I like to be happy and confident in myself,study's show that people who believe they are lucky tend to have better luck then those who don't.
its this whole something theory crase people have been on this
"secret" thing

all I know is that I'm fairly confident that if I beleive in myself I'll be doing myself a favor,and generally speaking I like to be happy.


so if you saw what I read and want to have it out.I welcome your sense of objection with open arms.

some people don't like it but I enjoy it when someones like

"I do not like what you have said and I R fighting you now to make you take them mouth words back!"

I absolutely love comparing ideas against each other,a duel of the minds! as it wer.

some folks don't like to "argue" saying
"neither of us is gonna change so why bother"

but I guess some folks don't see then joy in it as I do.

what better keeps your mind sharp,and what better way to loosen yourself up to new ideas and concepts then to have a strong opponent who knows what there talking about and puts you on the ropes!
what better way to see things you haven't before then to have such a person of the opposed side of what you believe.

I fight tooth and nail and will never give up unless I see I have no further place of reason to go and do you know what?

when this happens I rejoice because together we have acheaved something beautiful against statistically long odds.

agreement complete and total agreement an understanding of the minds and as such we are drawn close together,and to be honest it kinda turns me on :)

the reason i like it more when I am not the victor is because when this is so,I have learned something new,added new data to my files you might say,and I believe it makes me stronger,when the opposed is true I'm happy to do the same for someone else but gotta look out for number one ya know?


some people I guess wont like me much,and I dig that I don't like everyone even though I know that everyone is just trying to make there world better.
I'll always do my best and yet I'll remain truthful about who I am and what I think,so in effect some people will be rather disagreeable with me but thats ok really you can't please everyone this I know so I stopped trying.


and some people are gonna not like me for good reason,because sometimes I feel like giving people a reason ya know?
sometimes I just like to do bad things,like I know its kinda messed up,but me and my friends puck big ass spray painted black rocks in the road at night and cause property damage.
just to laugh at the pore guy who comes out of his car screaming and hollering.

and people go "well that will come back on you"

ok,I'm ready for it,I'll roll with that and any other blow karma can throw.
it can neglect its job when I do good thing but thats ok if it changes its mind when the I'm on the opposed side of things.

so yeah someday I'll be the pore bastard getting out of his car screaming and cursing but you know what?
I welcome that day and thought on the outside I'll holler and yes,on the inside I'll chuckle to myself just a little,and might even secretly applaud the group of teens running from me laughing there asses off.


thats all for now I guess,I'll occasionally be posting my thoughts here if I fear they may drift away before I get to to tell folks about them.