Need to write and let everybody know that I got over my depression. I would like to thank Arutheus, Aliciadragon, ,Draconis, and Blaze for their support it did help. The thing I feared the most was not being able to talk about thinks that make me happy during the day. So I have replaced it with music that I associate with furry dance videos . When I travel between work locations. This seems to be working. Another think I have noticed happening over the past several months. Since discovering that I was a furry . I have growing mental state of being at peace with one's self. This is the same feeling I use to experience daily. When running 5 miles in 30 minutes it known as a running's high. The different is my mental state of peace is longer but not as intense. Also in the past I was able to block all pain even at high levels, like falling into a 8 foot deep hole and landing on my back. Some bikers saw me fall in the hole and got a nearby ladder so I could climb out. After thanking them I them I continuing to run another 3 1/2 miles at normal pace with no pain. Hour later I checked my back just a couple of scratches and barely any blood. I never even bruised. My current mental state of peace does not allow me to block pain. My guess not intense enough. May be in a later journal I will talk about another case of mental control to fix a physical problem.