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Thoughts On My Fursona
13 years ago
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Commission Status: CLOSED
So, after doing some calculations, I've realized I have one base fursona, plus 4 variations of that, plus 12 sub-variations of those, plus 192 sub-sub variations of those. This is only covering one universe of me. There are three other universes with just as many forms that I will never know, because those three are the me that cannot be, the me that was never me, and the me that is the opposite of me, respectively.
It's all coming together and I'm making sense of all of the data I came up with one manic night long ago, in a pile of messy notes. I am turning it into something intelligible so I can explain it to people. This will then turn into an atlas which will be a part of the bestiary of avatars.
I am not sure what the name of my universe is, yet. I have figured out that Falak is the keeper of Homebrew, which lies on the outskirts of my physical self's dimension (not the other three in the tetrad...still need to sort this). Bahamut lies in the center and he is the keeper of the singularity which lies at the point center of that particular dimension, or as it's being temporarily called, the god dimension. Bahamut guards the entrance to my mind. And no mortal shall pass without judgement.
My god dimension/mind's primary universe is shaped like an eye. At the border of the vastness of this realm is Homebrew, which is where the fractal atomical structure of this world begins to collapse from the sheer mass of data and matter that exists on the edge. It is nearly impossible to reach the edge on foot. You'd have to find a warp point. Fortunately (or unfortunately, depending on how you look at it) there are waypoints all around my mind. Sometimes you have to watch where you are walking. They can be found everywhere and unexpectedly. I'm not sure who creates them or who seals them, though. Maybe I should designate someone or something.
Also, Karata is going to cease to be a character in a storyline and instead is going to take a more proper place in my mind's universe. He's always really been a mary sue character, truthfully, a manifestation of the author in his/her own storyline. So I'm going to give him a proper home, finally. Not sure what that will be, though.
Maybe Seth should have a place, too. I'm not sure.
Maybe they'll all live here. Maybe Koro, too. Who knows.
I do kind of need people to inhabit this place, don't I?
Hmm...
The more I consider this fate for them, the more it makes sense.
For anyone who doesn't know wtf I'm talking about, I'm mapping my mind. I'm taking census, too.
The spooky part about this though is how much it perfectly comes together. And how much it fits with already existing symbolism, mythology, and iconography that already exists in our world. It's like it was meant to be, sort of. That, or my brain is on a subconscious level putting this all together very precisely.
The more patterns I find that fit perfectly in my system, the more I am amazed.
I call all of this "organic math." Adapted from some notes I took:
"Organic Math is the mathematic (and symbolic) language that governs my mind's multiverse. It is the coding that allows me to create and perpetuate myself with thought."
You will all see the product of all of this, the end result. I wish you could experience the uncovering of it all, the piecing together that I've witnessed over the years. It's astounding how much it fits so well together. The things in my life fit together so amazingly perfectly in my head. My brain fits together so amazingly perfectly, the representations of it do, anyway.
I wish you could experience how phenomenally astounding this is. Every time I uncover more data I am just amazed at how brilliantly it is coming together, falling together in a way.
You guys don't even know how cool this can be sometimes. Yeah whatever it's hell sometimes too. But sometimes it's really cool. I wish I could take you all to this place...
The best part about this is that it mirrors existence in that it is a fractal. Everything about it is a fractal in some way. I like to see reality as a series of fractals, that everything is connected, that many or all things can be parallels of one another, and that everything is everything.
Anyway, more on this eventually.
It's all coming together and I'm making sense of all of the data I came up with one manic night long ago, in a pile of messy notes. I am turning it into something intelligible so I can explain it to people. This will then turn into an atlas which will be a part of the bestiary of avatars.
I am not sure what the name of my universe is, yet. I have figured out that Falak is the keeper of Homebrew, which lies on the outskirts of my physical self's dimension (not the other three in the tetrad...still need to sort this). Bahamut lies in the center and he is the keeper of the singularity which lies at the point center of that particular dimension, or as it's being temporarily called, the god dimension. Bahamut guards the entrance to my mind. And no mortal shall pass without judgement.
My god dimension/mind's primary universe is shaped like an eye. At the border of the vastness of this realm is Homebrew, which is where the fractal atomical structure of this world begins to collapse from the sheer mass of data and matter that exists on the edge. It is nearly impossible to reach the edge on foot. You'd have to find a warp point. Fortunately (or unfortunately, depending on how you look at it) there are waypoints all around my mind. Sometimes you have to watch where you are walking. They can be found everywhere and unexpectedly. I'm not sure who creates them or who seals them, though. Maybe I should designate someone or something.
Also, Karata is going to cease to be a character in a storyline and instead is going to take a more proper place in my mind's universe. He's always really been a mary sue character, truthfully, a manifestation of the author in his/her own storyline. So I'm going to give him a proper home, finally. Not sure what that will be, though.
Maybe Seth should have a place, too. I'm not sure.
Maybe they'll all live here. Maybe Koro, too. Who knows.
I do kind of need people to inhabit this place, don't I?
Hmm...
The more I consider this fate for them, the more it makes sense.
For anyone who doesn't know wtf I'm talking about, I'm mapping my mind. I'm taking census, too.
The spooky part about this though is how much it perfectly comes together. And how much it fits with already existing symbolism, mythology, and iconography that already exists in our world. It's like it was meant to be, sort of. That, or my brain is on a subconscious level putting this all together very precisely.
The more patterns I find that fit perfectly in my system, the more I am amazed.
I call all of this "organic math." Adapted from some notes I took:
"Organic Math is the mathematic (and symbolic) language that governs my mind's multiverse. It is the coding that allows me to create and perpetuate myself with thought."
You will all see the product of all of this, the end result. I wish you could experience the uncovering of it all, the piecing together that I've witnessed over the years. It's astounding how much it fits so well together. The things in my life fit together so amazingly perfectly in my head. My brain fits together so amazingly perfectly, the representations of it do, anyway.
I wish you could experience how phenomenally astounding this is. Every time I uncover more data I am just amazed at how brilliantly it is coming together, falling together in a way.
You guys don't even know how cool this can be sometimes. Yeah whatever it's hell sometimes too. But sometimes it's really cool. I wish I could take you all to this place...
The best part about this is that it mirrors existence in that it is a fractal. Everything about it is a fractal in some way. I like to see reality as a series of fractals, that everything is connected, that many or all things can be parallels of one another, and that everything is everything.
Anyway, more on this eventually.
