Well, I really don't hop them too much anymore. I think I've found plenty of awesome people so far. Occasionally, when I'm really bored and none of them are streaming, I hop around and try to meet new people.

Sure, getting free art is awesome, but I find when someone is livestreaming for requests, they are more interactive hosts, they actually talk and try to get to know you better, they enjoy your company, and respect you as you respect them. When someones just streaming games, or their own art all the time, they're more immersed in that and some I have found to be quite disrespectful.

So, why do I hop around livestreams? I need friends. I need outside opinions on things, I need people to talk to that make me feel better and make me forget whats going on around me.

I don't know if what I'm doing right now is the right thing or just another fuck up. It seems all I ever do is fuck up. He says its not, but I still feel it there. I think I'm making the wrong choice, again. I don't want to be used, and I don't want people to feel sorry for me. I want someone to love me...I want them to care that I'm here, and be here with me...

This is already getting off topic. Sorry.