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My spirit is one full of rage
13 years ago
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Thus sayeth Tuyuq Isuvviaraq Vampram
So my sister has been back for about a week now.
I've already woken up twice screaming in rage during that time alone. Both times, the events in the dreams were fairly petty, but in both cases my adrenaline was pumping too hard for me to fall back to sleep.
What's worse is that lately my cries have been becoming increasingly articulate. The last time this happened, I screamed, "You selfish bitch." Just now it was, "You awful, wretched, spiteful..."
This has been going on for years. Long enough to prove that I have real mental issues.
Hah. You hear that? My sister has driven me mental. O joy.
I want this done with. I don't want to have to avoid her my entire life so that my anger doesn't boil over into my subconscious mind. I hate having dreams that are every bit as hostile as my reality. Dreaming ought to be a blissful escape from the trials and horrors of the day, not a continuation.
I've already woken up twice screaming in rage during that time alone. Both times, the events in the dreams were fairly petty, but in both cases my adrenaline was pumping too hard for me to fall back to sleep.
What's worse is that lately my cries have been becoming increasingly articulate. The last time this happened, I screamed, "You selfish bitch." Just now it was, "You awful, wretched, spiteful..."
This has been going on for years. Long enough to prove that I have real mental issues.
Hah. You hear that? My sister has driven me mental. O joy.
I want this done with. I don't want to have to avoid her my entire life so that my anger doesn't boil over into my subconscious mind. I hate having dreams that are every bit as hostile as my reality. Dreaming ought to be a blissful escape from the trials and horrors of the day, not a continuation.
Ehwaz
~ehwaz
Until she changes her bullshit ways this will keep going on and getting worse. The best thing you can do is just avoid her.
