Havent been on here in forever!!! My watches uploads were in the thousands! i just now got throught them all.... Been so busy i havent even had time to think, been feeling really bad because i feel like i'm neglecting my Fiance, I love her so much and idk if its just my parannoyia or what but i feel like she is moving on without me... I understand that she now has a job and is busy alot, and i catch her at bad times....I just feel like she really doesnt want to talk to me... Also been trying to get loans to finaly open my own buisness, a Furry Cafe/Maid Cafe. been trying to speak to state councile and try to get around $500,000 so i can buy a section on land and build a wall and make a Furry sancuary Where Furries can live in a town of nothing but furries, but they dont understand and wont grant it. My head is throbbing so much. I have been depressed for weeks barly getting anysleep, my speech slurs, been having hallusinations, and splitpersonality dissorder is getting worse. I know alot of these words are misspelled but i just do not care at this point, i havent slept since tuesday. Colleen, If you ever read this i want you to know that i love you with all my heart and i am sorry if i have pissed you off, please forgive me!