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R.I.P RUdragon / Phation ?
13 years ago
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I really dont know how to start out how feel now. I never felt this low before in my life. Its a mix of thing thats making me feel this way. first s college with all the work i have to do but its not a mega thing that got me down. yes, i dont post every day any more from being in college but me and my ways of being unique in may art. I push my self really hard and also am hard on my self, even talking with a top artest on FA ( not nameing who ) help a lil on how i feel on this maner but i dont want to be a copy cat in any thing, i want to be my own inspiration showing throw my art not peps i like to show throw.
alone side that i have not said much on this becose i really dont care for my heath but just to give you an idea how i feel now a days. well in the days of posting every day i felt some days vary tired and weak and it was something i can work with. now becose im going to school and have to take a 2 hr. train, trax and bus ride to my school and walking to the next stop and classes, from that im reallly tried from that and haveing classes back to back to back i dont eat till 3:30. and the last class is my art class wich i need to take before going in to my animation class. and holding a pencil at that time is real hard when your so weak and hungry, so drawing a good pic in that class is hard with all that im feeling. and i found that some of my hair is falling out ( not sure if its natural for some one who has kinda long hair )
When i first stared art it was just a competition between me and my sis, becose she was a year or two younger then be and really good for her age and made fun of my stick figs and odd looking real life drawings. after years of trying to beat her i made it ( but i personally believe were even mached now) when trying to beat her i met so many awesome people on line. for some one who never really had any friends growing up this was the best and also getting i was a some one to look up to and was an inspiration to them. it was the best hearing thows words. and i did my best to ancer back to every one that gave me a note or comment me. i gave my self the goal to be better then the popular people and be nice to my fans and fallowers. and from that i been getting stuff like, " wow your talking to me" , "i cant believe you some one who is popular is talking to me and not a good drawer" or wow your not a jurk like like the other popular people out there.
also being some what of a mother figor on both DA and FA. with people were down and sad and i tryed to make them feel better. form knowing i stop some people committing suicide was a awesome feeling.
Now i find my self doing less and lees of responding back and lossing trak of friends. its so hard to say "HI" or "how you doing today?" i have about 7000+ watcher in all together on DA and FA and like a good 78% im friends with thow i miss some respons and we lose the conversation going back and forth. i truely do care for all my fan and friend, i just want to say to all you who comment and watch me i wish i can respond back to all of you, and don't feel like i don't care for you becose your a beginer artest or that i hate you, i dont i just have so many things to do. for all thows who comment me this will be my big resopns back.
" THANK YOU VARY MUCH :) i hope you like my work and keep up your dream of becoming a AWESOME ARTEST ( if not an artes thank you for the saport) you are all wonderfull people just to let you know, thank you so vary much"
Now to get way i putting this Journal,
im eather not going to post any more or be on a big hiatus.
for people i owe dragons or commissions ill try to get them done for you,
im not going to leve as a liar. so they will be done.
And as a last note, i like to say a special thank you for all the peps who were with me from the beging, and the best friends iv ever had. i hope you friend thies wonderfull people>>>>>
NightlyWinter
Curvee
BAGINAZARD
Kanel
Gillpanda
PepperThePoochyena
kwratster
orikomi
konicoon
enorapi
Dktorzi
landmaster37
shadydude
GeekiDog
kenji321
Marwan
sorry if i missed you if your not in there.
ill be not talking any more on FA, DA, MSN messenger and skype,
( ill leave all open for now till eather then end of this mouth or sooner, after words im closeing my self off.
even if you are hard to get a hold of or popular im not going to respond)
from all that i gaind im probly going to lose, friends, trust, vewis, watchers, ect.
if i ever come back it will be EPIC LIKE THIS>>>>>
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4IugChiRTsE
sorry for my action to make you sad.............
alone side that i have not said much on this becose i really dont care for my heath but just to give you an idea how i feel now a days. well in the days of posting every day i felt some days vary tired and weak and it was something i can work with. now becose im going to school and have to take a 2 hr. train, trax and bus ride to my school and walking to the next stop and classes, from that im reallly tried from that and haveing classes back to back to back i dont eat till 3:30. and the last class is my art class wich i need to take before going in to my animation class. and holding a pencil at that time is real hard when your so weak and hungry, so drawing a good pic in that class is hard with all that im feeling. and i found that some of my hair is falling out ( not sure if its natural for some one who has kinda long hair )
When i first stared art it was just a competition between me and my sis, becose she was a year or two younger then be and really good for her age and made fun of my stick figs and odd looking real life drawings. after years of trying to beat her i made it ( but i personally believe were even mached now) when trying to beat her i met so many awesome people on line. for some one who never really had any friends growing up this was the best and also getting i was a some one to look up to and was an inspiration to them. it was the best hearing thows words. and i did my best to ancer back to every one that gave me a note or comment me. i gave my self the goal to be better then the popular people and be nice to my fans and fallowers. and from that i been getting stuff like, " wow your talking to me" , "i cant believe you some one who is popular is talking to me and not a good drawer" or wow your not a jurk like like the other popular people out there.
also being some what of a mother figor on both DA and FA. with people were down and sad and i tryed to make them feel better. form knowing i stop some people committing suicide was a awesome feeling.
Now i find my self doing less and lees of responding back and lossing trak of friends. its so hard to say "HI" or "how you doing today?" i have about 7000+ watcher in all together on DA and FA and like a good 78% im friends with thow i miss some respons and we lose the conversation going back and forth. i truely do care for all my fan and friend, i just want to say to all you who comment and watch me i wish i can respond back to all of you, and don't feel like i don't care for you becose your a beginer artest or that i hate you, i dont i just have so many things to do. for all thows who comment me this will be my big resopns back.
" THANK YOU VARY MUCH :) i hope you like my work and keep up your dream of becoming a AWESOME ARTEST ( if not an artes thank you for the saport) you are all wonderfull people just to let you know, thank you so vary much"
Now to get way i putting this Journal,
im eather not going to post any more or be on a big hiatus.
for people i owe dragons or commissions ill try to get them done for you,
im not going to leve as a liar. so they will be done.
And as a last note, i like to say a special thank you for all the peps who were with me from the beging, and the best friends iv ever had. i hope you friend thies wonderfull people>>>>>
NightlyWinter
Curvee
BAGINAZARD 
Kanel
Gillpanda
PepperThePoochyena 
kwratster
orikomi
konicoon 
enorapi
Dktorzi
landmaster37 
shadydude
GeekiDog
kenji321
Marwan sorry if i missed you if your not in there.
ill be not talking any more on FA, DA, MSN messenger and skype,
( ill leave all open for now till eather then end of this mouth or sooner, after words im closeing my self off.
even if you are hard to get a hold of or popular im not going to respond)
from all that i gaind im probly going to lose, friends, trust, vewis, watchers, ect.
if i ever come back it will be EPIC LIKE THIS>>>>>
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4IugChiRTsE
sorry for my action to make you sad.............
good luck on your way and have fun :3
(this was the first journal i ever commented on xD)
Fare Thee Well. Hope things go well for you in whatever you do.
Good Luck.
I'm just a fan that wishes the best for folk and help when I can.
The situation for your college commute is drastic but ya have to do what ya got to.
I personally hope you can get a place or apartment closer to the college campus.
However if you ever do try it getting closer and need some finances, remember I can help ya with a donation if needed.
Just pm me absent restate your paypal.
Oh ta gonna be awesome when those paypal cards come out.
I hope its successful when it does.
Also I hope you are successful with your college and that it helps you get on the road for a professional one.
The not eating until after 3 is something we both share since I rather not waste money on campus and fast food lol.
It's refreshing to see the affects friendly rivalry has lol.
Take care
I know you'll return just don't kill yourself trying to please us fans.
Just get in good health and progress in your college studies dude.
And return when you can.
Remember don't make posting and doing art like previously a chore.
Anyway laterz
just don't give up ok. <:c
I dunno what to say :/ Id say just take a rest of us (if you want), dont post art if you feel like that.
Most people will jump and say "Nuuuuu ru why you arent drawing more ;-;" or "nuuu you can draw a bit still".
Is not like that.
I'd say rest and do what you want to do. And if you ever "feel" like drawing something for us, do it.
And always have in mind this:
- Friends will understand your situation
- If any friend gets mad at you not posting anymore, they arent friends.
- If any watcher gets mad at you dont posting anymore, well, he will lose your art if you post again.
That said, I wish you the best in all what you will do. I wont continue watching you and you will stay being an influence.
I mean I wont stop watching you D:
DX
I will NOT stop watching you.
The best artists are those who love it and passionate about their work. Have a good break :)
Partly since I never got the chance to work with you and I would have really loved too. But guess thats what happens when your still new around here.
now onto some other stuff you wrote in the journal. I'm currently studying to become a (male) nurse. So I can try to give you some info on some of the stuff you mentioned.
First of the hair-loose. I also have had long hair before and first if you got long hair you actually see how much hair you loose. that said if its still excessive amount of hair you loose then it is most likely stress related. people can get accelerated hair loose if they are under too much stress.
a thing that can related to it too and that you also mentioned is that you feel very tired due to not eating for a long time during the day.
And thats also the part where I can only say that you really need to either buy or take some food with you during your school day. A lot of the problems your describing relate to stress and you not eating in a regular. That also includes you feeling down and can even go into depression.
Not sure if this helps you or maybe makes you consider things but I still hope you will at least read it and maybe take it to heart to at least take care of yourself.
Imma miss you man.
Really sucks >.<
Im the kind of person who just sits and waits AMnXIOUSLY foR someone to talk to me xD
But yeh, its good u reMemer where u come from and where u are right now
U can still be better artist and person^^
Just keep it up!!!
Peace around ru dragon :3
I hope you come back soon. :')
Goodbye for now my friend. :')
You've got to take a level of anonymity with some of these things. I know its disheartening to not give out a reply to everybody that comments, but that is part of the fame game. Just take it with a pinch of salt that you can't reach everybody and to try is causing you problems.
Now health and stress reasons to slow down or take a hiatus is perfectly fine. More than fine even since it affects your life as a whole. you've got to get out of this "must post daily" thing you've got running through your head before it really hurts you. Slow the feck down :P
I myself am terrible at keeping in contact with people. A large amount of the time why I don't comment is because soo many of the people above me have made all the points I would have and I hate posting just two words like "cool pic" or "good job". It doesn't help anyone and many artists get annoyed by those types of posts, so I don't do it. That isn't to say I don't like the work, I wouldn't watch people or fav if I didn't like it!
To be honest you're one of the better artists on FA. Not just because of your artwork (which has always been amazing) but because of your attitude toward your watchers and friends. They know that, we know that, and its ok to miss one or two things, everybody does it.
Anyway I've rambled on enough. Good Luck with your college work and I hope you make it back to us one day ^-^
Take care man!
*Huggles* I hope you do make an epic comeback! :3 I'll be waiting for you and I know I'm not the only one who will be waiting~♥
Let's both do our best in college~♥♥♥ So good luck to you~!
But you shouldn't cause yourself stress trying to reply to everyone all the time, I think people understand you are busy in life as well as on art sites.
*Huggles ruru million times*
So I wish you good luck on your journey!
Do what you gotta do and come back when you are ready.
Its okay for me.
Good luck!
We'll miss you
From the sound of it your being stressed way beyond what you should handle, and i sure hope its not causing that pretty hair i have seen of yours, to fall out, i love the way your hair looks >w< Your friends who are loyal, will be right here waiting for your return, and I am sure as soon as your ready you will be faster and more back up to speed then any time before. Just remember if you feel overworked to take a brake for a bit.
I will always look foward to seeing more art from you, and maybe some day working together as I had once said in the past. Btw imma poke ya on MSN XD
I wanna apologize for not reply. Sorry for didn't notice it early that I was placed among the your best friends list. Oh, thank you RU for introducing me lead to a few watchers, at first I don't understand why I was mysteriously watched until I discover your action, RU.
Argh! is kinda scary placed at the top of the list (first) but is not big deal, just joking.
Last thing, let's hug RU. Really miss you, can't wait for your return.
welcome back ~ <3