Posting from my phone in the middle of a bog, so I'll cut to the chase.

I, like everyone else, have problems. My two headed dragon of depression and 'addictive personality' has once more raised it's ugly mug. Don't worry, I'm not in any serious danger at the moment, but something has to change.

Video games, like most fun time wasters, are best enjoyed in moderation. Moderation is tough for me. Probably a good thing I haven't tried to mod my copy of Skyrim... Either way, I've been putting off things that I've promised to both friends and family. He'll, I've even been putting off getting my own life in order, well this needs to change.

Depression has always been a factor in my life, rarely at the forefront but always lurking below the surface. Ending it all, throwing my life is not preferable, especially considering the investments my family and friends have put into me, it wouldn't be fair to them. Frighteningly, such dark thoughts still pass through my head, and I'm worried that I might act on them at one point.

So, I make a declaration: I'm taking out a new lease on life. I will not play Skyrim.-repeat like a mantra ad nauseum-. I will go out with my friends and have a good time. I will get back to writing. I will get my life back on the right road. I declare, with every ounce of my low reserve of will, that from this day, September 1st in the 2012th year of our lord, I will strive to be a better person. When this day returns in the year 2013, the lease will expire, and I will look back on my resolution. Perhaps then, I wont merely be surviving from day to day... Perhaps then, the future won't be so frightening to contemplate. Now to go home and apologize to my family, I have a deck to help finish. /crack knuckles.