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13 years ago
////////////////////////// Are airplanes just dragons in disguise? ///////////////////////
Commissions are open! So, since the name change I have:
Bought a car
Moved in with a girl
Found a brefriended a homeless guy my age
Been thrown out my apt because girl doesn't like said guy
Moved back home only to be groped in my sleep and then dumped by my boy
Been lied to
Chheated on
And all around just fucked with for no good reason
Whelpy little thing doesn't have to balls to tell me why, or whether he even ever loved me to begin with.
Told him never to contact me again, not until he learns to grow up and stop acting like a bad blonde girlfriend.
*sigh* that's not to say that I hate the kid's guts, cause I don't.... but I've been hurt so hard, and somany times.... even my broad back can only take so much.... and........ well, he was supposed to be different.... you were supposed to be special, Lucas..... and for so long, I truely believed you were. I thought you meant it when you promised me forever, for better or worse, through sickness and health, through hell and back.
Turns out your promises only apply as long as everything stays a walk in the park, then yes. Fuckin.........
THIS is why I waited almost twenty fuckin' years. I wanted someone to grow old with. And then I end up falling for a tempermental little.... well whatever.
Point is, I'm single now, and free to mingle I'spose........... *sobtear*
[EDIT]: I'm also a vagabond, living in my car now. See, the school wouldn't let me in because my math score in one point bellow standard, so I gotta wait till December to get in. So now me and Frankie are living in my car 'till we can get jobs and a place to live. So yeah, not only does Luke dump me, he dumps me like this, when I have no one and nothing. GRREAT for morale
Also, if anyone wouldn't mind doing a freebee icon for me, I'd be much oblidged... I can't stand the sight of this one.
Bought a car
Moved in with a girl
Found a brefriended a homeless guy my age
Been thrown out my apt because girl doesn't like said guy
Moved back home only to be groped in my sleep and then dumped by my boy
Been lied to
Chheated on
And all around just fucked with for no good reason
Whelpy little thing doesn't have to balls to tell me why, or whether he even ever loved me to begin with.
Told him never to contact me again, not until he learns to grow up and stop acting like a bad blonde girlfriend.
*sigh* that's not to say that I hate the kid's guts, cause I don't.... but I've been hurt so hard, and somany times.... even my broad back can only take so much.... and........ well, he was supposed to be different.... you were supposed to be special, Lucas..... and for so long, I truely believed you were. I thought you meant it when you promised me forever, for better or worse, through sickness and health, through hell and back.
Turns out your promises only apply as long as everything stays a walk in the park, then yes. Fuckin.........
THIS is why I waited almost twenty fuckin' years. I wanted someone to grow old with. And then I end up falling for a tempermental little.... well whatever.
Point is, I'm single now, and free to mingle I'spose........... *sobtear*
[EDIT]: I'm also a vagabond, living in my car now. See, the school wouldn't let me in because my math score in one point bellow standard, so I gotta wait till December to get in. So now me and Frankie are living in my car 'till we can get jobs and a place to live. So yeah, not only does Luke dump me, he dumps me like this, when I have no one and nothing. GRREAT for morale
Also, if anyone wouldn't mind doing a freebee icon for me, I'd be much oblidged... I can't stand the sight of this one.
More than you'll even know...
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Commission me, dammit!
A lot of us are stressed out about various things for various reasons upon different attitudes of things we need to hold on to and matters we need to accomplish. It's times like this where you, me, and a lot of others are unhappy and it seems to me that in social nature, a lot of us are connected to a state of "conditional boundary," in which when one feels down, everyone else does and vice versa, etc.
It must be very hard, but I find it very understandable. Uncle, this was so sudden as I scrolled through to check... ;.=.;
*hugs from behind* I think people should care about each other more often and cooperate through harsh times. There are natural obstacles everyone should realize and face and as I see it, I should not care about my "smaller" goals and I know I should worry about anything that's worth deeming as a necessity, be it physical (food, water, protection), social (family/friends, like you! <3), mental (education, learning, experiments(<--that's vital and helpful), enlightenments), and even emotional(comfort, compassion, caring, and just enjoying even in worst circumstances).
They say the best sparks brightest when circumstances are at their worst. Don't give in hon! I myself have been feeling distraught from tiredness, confusion, and dissatisfaction on how I'm doing on every single little thing when really, it's best to only focus on what's truly important and utilize less > more. We don't need everything.
So as it goes, I care and I wanted to talk with you because of your well being, who you are, how you're doing, etc. but I can sense the lack of response now because of the difficult hardships you're still going through. Sorry if I got carried away.
I tell you what; as much as I'm stressed out myself even on art, I'll see if painting and painting your icon helps. I think people should slow down and relax in their life; it's true that rushing is unhealthy and yet people do it anyway as VGM said that haste makes waste.
I'll be there uncle. ~^.=.^~ Please stay positive!
With tender hopes,
~Azure
Either way, you're welcome. :}