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13 years ago
You ever braced yourself for the worst possible outcome ... but hoped with all your might that the other person would prove you wrong...?
I've never wanted to be wrong as badly as I do today ... but it's beyond the realm of my control. I can't change what others choose to say or do. It just sucks when you try to handle something as carefully as possible and it -still- blows up in your face. And in the end, their actions only serve to further validate my decision. I should be grateful ... but I'm not. Just horribly disappointed, because I was hoping I could expect better of them. To go out with some dignity and maturity. But instead ... well, here we are.
I asked for a ceasefire, and all I got was a war...
I've never wanted to be wrong as badly as I do today ... but it's beyond the realm of my control. I can't change what others choose to say or do. It just sucks when you try to handle something as carefully as possible and it -still- blows up in your face. And in the end, their actions only serve to further validate my decision. I should be grateful ... but I'm not. Just horribly disappointed, because I was hoping I could expect better of them. To go out with some dignity and maturity. But instead ... well, here we are.
I asked for a ceasefire, and all I got was a war...
Or I assume that's what this is--it's what I infer, going by the earlier entries, anyway.
If so, they burn themselves out eventually and will leave you alone--in the mean time, just try to stay above it and don't sink to their level. If someone is blasting you publicly, and you don't retaliate, they really just make themselves look bad in the end.
The only comfort I'm taking away from this that between the two of us, I know I've done everything right to be rational, respectful, and civil. After all, -I'm- not the one with the vendetta now. A clear conscience is a minimal comfort, but when it's all ya have, you cling to it. =/
Hope things get better for you soon--at least you've got other and more positive stuff to focus on and look forward to.
And thankfully, all the business of getting the house underway is serving as a damn good distraction. Keeps me focused on my priorities and moving forward, rather than having the chance to sulk about how poorly things ended up with her. The sooner the house is done and I'm living there, the better I know I'll feel. X_X
By the way, how's Lee holdin' up?
He's doing well. He's expecting to be able to drive again by early next week.
As an aside, I still gotta send you pictures of the new place, it's turning out awesome so far. =3
Well, it depends on where you're moving to/what the situation is (and how much crap you have =P).
Also, we should totally try and grab one another on the phone for a bit this weekend. S'been too long, sis, been missin' ya somethin' awful.
Let's see how my cough is doing tomorrow--it'd be a little hard to carry on a verbal conversation right now =P I'll get back to ya.