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17 years ago
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When i was young (though to think now that i am old or even very grown up is slightly absurd) I protested against confinement. how wonderful to be an adult! you can do whatever you want.
As i became older i chose what i wanted to do, where i wanted to go with my life. collage, jobs, all that. Now, after having spent almost seven years in schools of my choosing, i'm faced with paying back all of my student loans, a situation i'm sure most of you can sympathize with.
it occurs to me, and this isn't pessimism talking, just a thought that takes a while to wrap words around, that that act of becoming an adult can be described as choosing that which we are slaves to. For the next twenty to forty years i will be working for the bank which paid for my school. not slavery in the traditional sense, but it is a sort for bondage that i can't escape from unless i die (that stipulation is clearly marked down in the contract the school gave me upon leaving)
and going further than that, we can easily become slaves to our own routines, our lives, the convinces of familiarity, even when that familiarity is harmful or painful, emotionally or physically.
I know what my vices are, my routines and my addictions. I think graduating, and trading the rut of being in school for so long for the routine of working to re-pay my student loans has, for the moment, given me a perspective on things i wouldn't normally considered.
Of course i could be drastically WRONG, and whining because i don't happen to fancy paying back the 100,000 in loans i took out to get through collage, but either way, wrong or not, it's and interesting perspective to consider.
Enough.
Well here's what it got me anyway
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1318286/
so shiny and new. now what? well, even if my mood is affected by my looming debt, i do have the benefit of options. I'm working with a buddy of mine to set up a screen printing studio here in Minneapolis, i'll be starting up my webcomic soon, as well as finishing and printing my senior project, picking my sculpture back up, taking COMMISSIONS ( http://www.furaffinity.net/user/info/hobbesmaxwell ) again and doing art for the fun of it. something i haven't done in...i honestly cannot remember.
So I'm honestly thrilled, don't get me wrong, the above ranting was not a statment of the depressed, just where my mind has been this past week. graduating, whew what a trip.
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As i became older i chose what i wanted to do, where i wanted to go with my life. collage, jobs, all that. Now, after having spent almost seven years in schools of my choosing, i'm faced with paying back all of my student loans, a situation i'm sure most of you can sympathize with.
it occurs to me, and this isn't pessimism talking, just a thought that takes a while to wrap words around, that that act of becoming an adult can be described as choosing that which we are slaves to. For the next twenty to forty years i will be working for the bank which paid for my school. not slavery in the traditional sense, but it is a sort for bondage that i can't escape from unless i die (that stipulation is clearly marked down in the contract the school gave me upon leaving)
and going further than that, we can easily become slaves to our own routines, our lives, the convinces of familiarity, even when that familiarity is harmful or painful, emotionally or physically.
I know what my vices are, my routines and my addictions. I think graduating, and trading the rut of being in school for so long for the routine of working to re-pay my student loans has, for the moment, given me a perspective on things i wouldn't normally considered.
Of course i could be drastically WRONG, and whining because i don't happen to fancy paying back the 100,000 in loans i took out to get through collage, but either way, wrong or not, it's and interesting perspective to consider.
Enough.
Well here's what it got me anyway
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1318286/
so shiny and new. now what? well, even if my mood is affected by my looming debt, i do have the benefit of options. I'm working with a buddy of mine to set up a screen printing studio here in Minneapolis, i'll be starting up my webcomic soon, as well as finishing and printing my senior project, picking my sculpture back up, taking COMMISSIONS ( http://www.furaffinity.net/user/info/hobbesmaxwell ) again and doing art for the fun of it. something i haven't done in...i honestly cannot remember.
So I'm honestly thrilled, don't get me wrong, the above ranting was not a statment of the depressed, just where my mind has been this past week. graduating, whew what a trip.
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BlueVon
~bluevon
heh, what made u think about starting a screen printing studio? :3
mansonsdragon
~mansonsdragon
I feel what you are going through.. getting ready to think abotu college. At the same time, I have enough in the bank I was planning on just buying a small boat, packing my crap up, and sailing off, haha. But yes.. that scares me, to think that more than 90% of our live sit feels, is spent in confinement to normal society parameters.
