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I feel so lost
13 years ago
Somehow life has been so so hard that I'm getting to be emotionally drained. These happened one after another (like 2-5 days apart that started this january):
1. My dad was rushed to the ICU and had a 50-50 chance of survival.
2. Our house was flooded.
3. There was bleeding of my dad's hilostomy area so he was rushed to the hospital again.
4. my grandma was rushed to the ICU because of a massive stroke.
5. learned that the 3 (yeah 3 primary tumors) of my dad increased in size.
6. my grandma passed away just now.
7. oh yeah we have to pay for all of the medical expenses and right now we are losing money that is in our savings.
I feel so lost and i can't do anything right now. did i do something in my life to deserve this? i promised to go back doing commissions but somehow i can't fucking get inspiration to draw something. i just.. i don't know... it's like trying to get up the horse after falling down but after falling down pretty much like everytime it's like saying to take a hint and just give up.
blah.. just venting out sorry. i tried crying it out but it just won't get out and it just bottles inside. once again sorry just needed something/somewhere to let it out.
1. My dad was rushed to the ICU and had a 50-50 chance of survival.
2. Our house was flooded.
3. There was bleeding of my dad's hilostomy area so he was rushed to the hospital again.
4. my grandma was rushed to the ICU because of a massive stroke.
5. learned that the 3 (yeah 3 primary tumors) of my dad increased in size.
6. my grandma passed away just now.
7. oh yeah we have to pay for all of the medical expenses and right now we are losing money that is in our savings.
I feel so lost and i can't do anything right now. did i do something in my life to deserve this? i promised to go back doing commissions but somehow i can't fucking get inspiration to draw something. i just.. i don't know... it's like trying to get up the horse after falling down but after falling down pretty much like everytime it's like saying to take a hint and just give up.
blah.. just venting out sorry. i tried crying it out but it just won't get out and it just bottles inside. once again sorry just needed something/somewhere to let it out.
ill be on skype whenever ya need somebody to chat to or someone to just listen ill be there dude
*hugz*
I really hope your dad can survive. I'm really very sorry to hear about your grandma, but I'm sure she's up in heaven watching down on you all. She's not really gone, she's still inside your mind and heart.
As for fans waiting for commissions, they're not real friends or fans if all they're looking for is your artwork, and I'm sure you don't have many of those types, all of your fans and friends are the true blue ones, so take your time with everything and I hope everything goes alright. I'll even pray if I have to. None of you deserve this.
*hugs tightly* I really hope your dad will be all right, and that somehow your family can make it through all this. Just don't give up...doing that is sure to determine that you'll never recover.
As for getting back up on the horse... don't give up. It's all just a test and you can't let life win.
Not sure of your beliefs, but I'm praying for you and your family that things work out for the best.
I know you can do it, please just find a way to let these feelings out--bottling them inside isn't good for you... Punch a pillow, scream into it, whatever! (Pillows are masochists!)
Take care of yourself.
Just try to keep calm, and let it all out when you feel you really have to.
You're going through a tough time, but be strong bud. *hugs* My condolences, and I pray things get better for you.
*UberHuggles*
My condolences
I really hope things look up for you soon, and I'm sorry to hear about all of the things you're facing right now...I wish I could do more, dude.
I hope things get better for all of you.
Take care and I hope things get better for you.
I really hope that everything goes in the best possible way for you. My best wishes [hugs]
Try to take it easy from time to time, chief. It's tough, but you guys will make it out okay for sure.