People change. Especially when they have a child to look after. Past is the past, as you said. Learning to look past grudges is hard for people to do. I may not know the full story for one incident (only from what was posted), nor will I speak about it out of respect to you and him, but from what I have read from your journals, as well as his (on occasion), both of you are good people. You have a kid to look after now, and you two have shown responsibility to take care of him. That alone shows change. If people don't want to see or accept the change, fuck 'em. Means they don't really care, then, about anything except drama.

On a lighter note, how is the kid doing? When I read/saw you had a kid, I didn't post anything, but I did wish you three the best on him growing up healthy.

i appreciate your comment and i agree. and jonah is doing great. he is getting too big. lol he is strong enough to when i hold him up he can hold himself up with his legs. i love him so much.

Cute. Has he taken his first steps yet? 'Cause we all know when a child takes his/hers first steps, you're in for a loooooong road of: "Oh lord. He got in to the cookie jar again!"

HA! no he's just 3 months but he is very big, strong, and active for a three month old.

I totally feel your pain and I have been in a similar spot in life. You are so right when you say . Silence and disregard hurts more than insults and slaps. I hate being ignored and being out of the loop. As you go through life, you are going to have to learn to make new friends. As you guys change and grow, your friends are going to change. You may carry a few friends from childhood along with you during life, but honestly most just drop off and move in different directions. This has little do with drama actually and more to do with how life changes as things like jobs, children and more adult responsibilities take over our lives.

I do not talk to the same people I did when I was a teenager, and I do not talk to the same folks that I hung out with in collage. When I was married, I do not talk to any of the friends I had during that time and when I lived in Georgia, I rarely talk to the folks I knew there and I do not chat with anyone from the 25 years I spend living in California. These people don't hate me and there is no big drama to really speak of. Sometimes I get a Facebook response from someone I used to know, but things are never how they use to be. You just gotta push forward and find those you have things in common with now.

Even now, my friend group in changing again and it is not because anyone hates me. People are not taking sides, they are just dealing with what they got going on in their own lives and that doesn't include me. Also if Terra works as much as you say, he really don't have time for much and he doesn't have the time he used to have to put into the relationships he used to have with friends and what not. They are not just going to sit around and wait for him, or arrange their lives according to the time he has available and it is possible that they feel a bit snubbed too as well because of just the lack of time and contact. It goes both ways..

I don't mean to sound hurtful, but I been there and in some ways I am still in that spot of feeling isolated, lonely and cut off from everyone, just in a different way

I am still your friend I will be your friend :3