well as if things weren't stressful enough for me with my final exams being in january and working over-hours everyday.......my sister had a breakdown again today. I went to see her and I was shocked in what state my sister was.... I'm worried about her alot and it drives me crazy having so much stuff going on lately *sighs* I wish there was a button to switch every thing of to sort my thoughts but there isn't.....well even if it makes me feel uncomfortable I have to focus on learning...... my chef is like a drill-instructor nowadays... but to be honest he's right..... if I want to succeed at the final exams I have to sit down onto my ass and pump all those informations into my brain....*curses* everytime I feel like my inspirations come back and I want to do more creative stuff some shit happens and I get depressed and stuff. well whatevs the future will bring hope your life is better than mine right now.....and hopefully better than my sisters... thinking about her alot lately V.V I also feel bad that I dissappointed Shiko again today. promised her to spent time with her today. sry Shiko I'll try to make it up to you somehow Q.Q

have a good weekend or whatevs.....