Well, what with all the crazy stuff going on, it's pretty hard to not get involved in something.

I want to be descriptive, yet I don't think I should.
Well, how about I just do this. I'll do as much detail as I can without going too far.

For quite some time, I've been living in a life of sin. This is with no pride or the such that I admit this, nor speak of it, but I figure it should be known.

If anyone knows more, please don't release the info here. This isn't about details.

Anyways, all through it all, had this thought in my mind telling me that there was something wrong. I generally ignored it, thinking that it was just what I was told in the past getting to my head, never figured it was important.
It was.

Let me set the scene. Tech booth at my church. I'm sitting at the soundboard. Pastor's talking about something on Thanksgiving. Then he says, and I"m not sure in what context, "God is always the same."

"God is always the same."

He's the same today, tomorrow, yesterday, and years ago.
I didn't think a whole lot of it at the time, but it started tearing me apart on my way home.
He's the same today, same as when He made the universe. Never changing.
So, after thinking that, I did something strange. I pulled into a park. Went over to a picnic table. I don't know how long I stayed there, or much more about what was going on. I sat down, in a partly sunny place, it was pretty well clouded. Windy too.
At that point, I did something that I haven't for quite some time, and I'll admit, should be doing much more. I prayed.
That started off with me asking for guidance, to know what's right. Basically, what lifestyle am I looking to live? I really don't know. Or, I didn't.
I don't know how long I was there. During that time tho, I'm sure the Lord spoke to me. It wasn't even speaking, but He lead my thoughts.
It was that point that I dedicated my life to the will of God. Whatever He wants me to do, I'll do it.

I want to be better than I am. I want to improve. I regret what I did.
This isn't my life any more. My life is for God.

I'm sure it's going to be a long, slow, rough path to get moving in the right direction, but with Him, and support from others, I'll make it.

A huge thanks to Wolfin, Levi, and Kenson for helping me with this. Y'all are great.
If anyone else wants to help me stay strong on this new path of life, I'd appreciate it.