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Giving up the story
13 years ago
No one seems interested, and no artists want to do the work.
so im giving up for now.
it needed too much editing anyway. that and i've lost the drive to care.
I had fun writing it, beginning too end, at least in my head, but i got very little feedback.
I'm in a bit of a growly mood lately. stress real and imagined.
the new roommate isn't too bad but not quite what i was expecting/hoping for *shrugs*
I start a new job next week im terrified of to be honest. and i just don't feel why i should even bother or try to care anymore.
housing is going to be tricky, and probably I won't get anything like what I wanted (GODS I want a dog, but I don't think i can afford a place that will allow a lab). Especially in that I have to assume all costs on my own. The roommate however long it lasts will be unable to contribute funds for a undetermined amount of time... sometimes I honestly wonder why i offer to help people anymore.
on the flip side... it's kind of nice NOT being totally alone. and maybe this is is the normal pains of re-adjusting to living with someone after being alone for so long. especially since this is a strictly platonic non-touchy situation. im genuinely doing the right thing for what are probably the right reasons.
I just can't help but wonder if I've gotten myself into a bigger mess than I can ... or want to handle.
time will tell.
so im giving up for now.
it needed too much editing anyway. that and i've lost the drive to care.
I had fun writing it, beginning too end, at least in my head, but i got very little feedback.
I'm in a bit of a growly mood lately. stress real and imagined.
the new roommate isn't too bad but not quite what i was expecting/hoping for *shrugs*
I start a new job next week im terrified of to be honest. and i just don't feel why i should even bother or try to care anymore.
housing is going to be tricky, and probably I won't get anything like what I wanted (GODS I want a dog, but I don't think i can afford a place that will allow a lab). Especially in that I have to assume all costs on my own. The roommate however long it lasts will be unable to contribute funds for a undetermined amount of time... sometimes I honestly wonder why i offer to help people anymore.
on the flip side... it's kind of nice NOT being totally alone. and maybe this is is the normal pains of re-adjusting to living with someone after being alone for so long. especially since this is a strictly platonic non-touchy situation. im genuinely doing the right thing for what are probably the right reasons.
I just can't help but wonder if I've gotten myself into a bigger mess than I can ... or want to handle.
time will tell.
I think your stories are great.
i dunno. but thank you so much for your feedback *hugs*
i've just had such a hard time getting the artists who i commissioned to actually DO the pictures I asked of them.
one artist i had to get a refund from because he didn't want to do MLP stuff anymore so yeah *shrugs*
its just disheartening when you're working on a project and no one seems interested.
and tbh the parts i desperately needed to do, i've done. the catharsis of writing a broken person being helped back together was really healthy.
it's just that my own "friends" aren't as helpful sometimes and it's just...
i'd give anything to be Beta sometimes. his life is seriously fucked up... but he has good friends who won't stab him, and that's something I wish i could say for sure in real life.
I my come back... and thank you. everyone who responded.
it help a great deal to know anyone watches ^_^ and reads
*hugs*
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