Other more years of loneliness, because... I cannot find someone dedicated like you.
I know I made my choice... and the risk was huge.
I lost you, and now I have ahead of me... more loneliness in real life.

I splitted up because the family was between us, and our paths were tangled by broken dreams, and unreachable goles.

Our hopes were too high, that we didn't see the real picture.. till now.

Other more years of loneliness, and darkness.
I don't have the gumption to even step outside.. especially after what happened recently.

Other more years, of hiding in the shadows, for how timid and afraid I am of the real world...
I've been closed in these walls for almost 3 years... hoping somebody would offer me a perfect job... but thus is an unreachable goal, just like our relationship.

I hide in the shadows just like a black wolf, hunting in the twilight.

I did promise myself.. that if I lose you... I wouldn't find another soul anymore... and I'd definetly turn back into a wolf... for how lonely I might turn out to feel...

I wish I still have my friends, after such an ordeal... I do not want to abbandon my flesh just yet.. my recent goals might have been shattered.. but I still need a new home to sleep in, far from my family.

You can consider me as an emo, when I pull out negativity at a happy moment... or I just smile and wave.. because I dont want you guys to feel bad for me... *sobs* sorry.. *sniffles* It still hurts... to absorb the pain.
I love you guys.