So its homecoming week at my school and I went to the bonfire yesterday

I obvi had my gloves and the whole time I was doing light shows and trying to find someone to battle but alas I could find no one

That is until I notice a lack guy bone breaking in the background with a few other people

So I walk up and start talking to him turns out he was in the dance club at school which Ive been waiting forever to find out about

Turns out I am 1 out of 4 thats in it pretty much

As we were walking out though he was saying something about the pep rally (tomorrow) but I couldn't really hear him because of all the other people being loud and stuff

So he asked for my number and I of course gave it to him and he text me later asking me if I wanted to preform

So I was all like sure sounds cool

But the entire time he was talking about performing on mats in the middle of the pep rally IN FRONT OF THE WHOLE FUKCING SCHOOL JGFKEIFGHJE

So after school today I went with him and did some practice and showed my style and stuff and my style is SOO much different then theirs its cray cray

From the music I dance and listen to down to my popping and footwork

They sort of Bboy and their kinda good.........well a hell of alot better then me lol but any ways

I went over there and we all practiced to some dubstep had a good time

But here are the things that kinda suck

First off its like the school considers us a club and we can preform at school events but we dont have a legit teacher to sponsor us

Which basically means if we wanna practice at all it cant be at school because when you have a teacher sponsor they watch you and you can have club meets int heir class and stuff

I think we found a teacher but I'm not sure yet

Also the lack of Advertising is uncanny its like no one knows we exist were just their and stuff

So I'm gonna try and get some signs up and hopefully some more people will be able to join the club

But back to the pep rally

I'M FREAKING THE FUCK OUT

ONLY GLOOOOOB CAN SAVE ME KNOW

Im just really fucking nervous because as I said were gonna be on mats which is pretty much gonna throw of ALL my foot work

Which sucks.......and I haven't had much practice like AT ALL which sucks

And idk what song were even dancing too but I think D.A.N.C.E. by Justice because a lot of people know that song and it fits all of our styles

PLUS I'm the only white person that's gonna be down there dancing but to add some emphasis to my moves and stuff I'm gonna be wearing a white hoodie with my denim vest that has a decent amount of buttons and pins for flare and my gloves ( no lights obvi)

I mean shit I'm all up for performing but its gonna be my first one ever, its not choreo AT ALL we all are displeased by it so we decided to do it in battle form and everyone is gonna be high up in the bleachers so its gonna be hard to tell whats happening the mats gonna fuck me up there's gonna be some breaking going down

And the thing that gets me the most is that this is all in front of my ENTIRE FUCKING SCHOOL

If it was a random crowd then hey no prob if I fuck up no problem

But if I fuck up in front of the ENTIRE SCHOOL then its gonna suck......A LOT

And I'm sure most all my moves will be shown up but I'm doing a more electronic style combined with turfing and some popping

UGH I'm just really nervous right now and I'm sure its gonna take a shit ton of courage out of me to even step on the fucking mat let alone start to dance

I can already feel the butterflies in my belly saying PUSSY ASS BITCH :c

But on the bright side all my friends that have gotten light shows are really hype to see me dance including....well ALL my friends

And really I don't know a lot of people so I shouldn't be that worried but shit......I don't even....I cant......How do you?

UGH It would just be really helpful if I could get some comments right now XD or if someone actually read all this shit haha

I just realized how fucking long this is well any whoooo

I'm going to preform at like 9 I think so ANY COMMENT AT ALL REALLY WOULD HELP ME

Niggas don't even know how nervous I am :c

NUU I'm already doing this thing where I crack my knuckles non stop and constantly make myself burp.......ummm...yah I have weird ass tics

Any ways yah Im gonna check this journal before I go out so cmon guys PLEASE comment and help meh not mess up I'm just gonna try and be optimistic and eventful and such