blargh.
I've been feeling rather blah for a while now, a combination of factors contribute to this, most notably working too much and having very little time to spend all by myself (I love my child, but I have a very high need for personal time too which I haven't gotten much of lately), I've been waking up too early and going to bed too late for no real reason. I feel like I can't get anything done, and I feel kinda sluggish and gross all around.
But I'm looking forward to changing that.
I'm starting on the Beyond Diet plan tomorrow, to try to get back to my old shape and self. I'm tired of just remeniscing about the days when I had a figure and am about to embark on a metabolism reset that I'm a little stressed about but also feeling very positive about.
It would be fabulous if husband would get on board as well, but of course thats not going to happen, so I'm gonna wind up all slim and hot, and he's gonna just keep on with the body by alcoholism we both ended up with a few years ago.
At any rate this is me kinda regrouping before going to bed before starting this new craziness tomorrow. I took the second half of this week to kinda treat myself to all the chemically fortified and nasty foods I won't be able to eat anymore (I'm not complaining, just lamenting, its a BIG change to not have soy anymore, half of what I eat has soy in it...).
When I start to see some progress I'll post a scrap pic of a before and during and then eventually an after.
I'm psyched and scared. I know this will work if I stick with it, my one boss is like wasting away on this lifestyle change deal and I can't wait to get to that point, but for now I'm just sort of meditating on the hope that this will work and that I'll start to feel re-energized and motivated in a way that I haven't in quite some time.

stupid life stuff over.
black fox out.